I Dream ....

I dream, I can fly, like a wing, and be strong, when my heart, just want to give it away ....

Alas, Dreams are for 1 to fulfill. Dreams are for humans to desire. However dreams may not come true. But nevertheless, I will strive to enhance it.

For many a times, I have warned myself that different issues are meant to be dealt with separately, just like different people have different treatments.

I regret bullying people, and this is why I swear not to talk bad about other people from now on today, including Xuan De whom I keep accusing him as Alien.

I, myself is not perfect, and vow to change myself for the betterment. Competence is a must, but human's gut instinct is an imperative.

Ugly duckling might have been too rush, it might have pissed off other people especially the swan though the U.d may not have meant it. But the U.d understand the swan's intention, for it is the U.d's fault in the first place. Another explanation might have spanned out from, love is a different thing.

But, the swan has told U.d that it did not like it without any reason yet apparent. Worst still, it is a big handsome bull that tell U.d about the fact. U.d definitely did not blame anyone or how. It is just that somethings should have happened by its own. Thus, this U.d vow to be a graceful swan, and it is slowly growing up. From boy to man, from child to adult. It is time to wake up, and keep life going.

But, U.d still wants to maintain a friendship with the swan. Swan may have rejected it, but it still wants to be friend. U.d knows its own limits and will never probe any further. A graceful swan should have a better candidate for partners, instead of U.d. But nevertheless, U.d believes that it will grow up, and hope that everyone will be happy, find their desired happiness and continue to be friends. U.d will not be like a horrible toad, lusting after the swan. What the U.d wants to tell the swan is don't be too superficial, and after finding your "target", just be slow and careful. Be discern also. And as swan is beautiful and good enough, it will surely get the "swan" it desires.

Anyway, base on the above story, I have realised that I am that U.d. But, I am willing to change and grow up. I have been exceptionally strange and eccentric, until my friends stone me. They do not hate me, but neither do they like me. Especially that prom attire, it is very nice, and I look nice in that. But there is something that I lacks, that may be my action or ettiquette. Thus, what I lack may also be the charisma. Charisma can be trained but also in the upbringing of the person.

I am aware of this, and realise that other being humless, cool, stay steady, and an action and attitude that most of the people can tolerate or like is the one that I need. I have to change myself, not only for myself, family or friends. But also for my future girlfriend. The problem may be I change too slow. My change is also half-hearten, like a sissy. Thus, I will and must change better or best as fast as possible, with a good and light heart.

Also. Many a times, I depend too much on my friends, thus I should be more independent, though Chinese has a saying, that is at home, you rely your family; outside you rely on your friends.

I must also understand the meaning of love before I can truly love, especially a girl. I have experience many love except the steads love. Time is needed anyway. Like the U.d, it is hoped that I can changed into a graceful swan one day.

But right now, I am going to focus on the career. The SciFi. It keeps me going, anyway.

After blabbering everything I THOUGHT, Blog, I realise that I should stop pissing people off. Unlike Pratheepan who is really good and I admit, I cannot handle pisses well. So it is only that I stop playing with this fire. Pisses can be fun and good, but may also have side - effects. To me pisses can be equal to lame.

Hai!! Anyway, I go to school as usual today. Boring stuff. Meet many of my juniors and teachers. Asking for my enlistment date. A lot as usual tells me how lucky I am to enter police instead of tekong. As we go past J8, think of meeting a friend, but she is not there. Perhaps she did not work today which is pretty obvious. The reason, 2 of us know is enough. Pratheepan has already told me to which I understand.

But at the school library, Adam, Pratheepan and I set an agenda what we are supposed to do for our future. I am very ashamed that I have not set anydreams. I am in fact very impressed about 2 of them. Thus, I swear I must set my dreams for what I am going to do today. They have dreams like becoming millionare by 20s. And we set out what we are supposed to do to reach that target.

Due to some business personal matter, it will not be convenient and appropriate for me to talk to you.

Then, Adam and I go off first, to which I slack at his house for 1 hour. Then, we go to J8 again, to watch Kungfu Hustle. The show is quite nice, but in my view, is still second to Stephen Chow's former movie, Shaolin soccer.

Then, we go home, and I go to Woodlands library to return books for Adam, help Pratheeepan borrow books and also to enrich myself. And I basically come home and eat.

I am a little bit stunned off by the "news" (Dun think too much!!!) of myself. Perhaps it is time I should reflect on myself, and keeps life going at a good pace.

Arigo Para Slempre !!! My friend, my blog ....