Haha, finally the week to walk out braces me. I was still worrying about confinement as a F.I (I dun knoe his name) threatened to hold us back.
Anyway, last week, while meeting Adam and Pratheepan who are botak (Heehee), we make major business plan changes due to our N.S schedule and also some problems not major but big enough ti make major changes. Hai~~ Doing buisness especially SciFi needs more than just luck, so got to upgrade myself all the time. :) ....
Anyway, this week of N.S have not being exceptionally good to me. Luckily I am a Man, and an optimistic one, so still won't feel bad. This is good as this will mean that my EQ and AQ will be high. That also means I will not commit sucide to a very high extent. Kudos again !!!
Our marching is stiill lousy for my squad. I am the right man, front man when marching, so very stress. Many eyes on me, including my squad friends. Haha. But believe I can overcome it. And also, P.T. To my horror, I realise I cannot use my 100% let alone 1000%. F.I Deli is right, I am quite weak. Whatever happen to my ODAC glory moment. Anyway, I must mentally prepare for this. I must improve so as to fulfill the vision I have made.
Realise millitary use a lot of "smelly", "ugly" and vulgar language. At times, when I want to use them, luckily, I manage always to restrain myself. Sometimes, just blurt out but hey I quickly collect myself. From next week, we are going to start the daily squad I.C things. That means I must ensure the perfect linguistic ability of my Malay commands. haha. Sometimes, without pain, without gain. Sometimes, have to taste the bitterness ....
My denfensive technique and my shooting can be improved. Haha. Realise that I am still quite far from the envisioned Man thing. Heehee ...
Anyway, will make sure that I am always happy and healthy, and also wish all my friends the same happiness and salubrious body. Have contact some form of phlegm illness. Must drink plenty of water.
Everyday, sing love songs in the barracks with many of my friends. Hai~~. People say that N.S man are desperados. I must become like this. Must know that love and romance are not the only things in life. They are significant and important but not imperative at the moment. (Dun know whether I will say this when I am 40. Hah)
As usual, Arigo Para Slempre !!!
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Friday, January 21, 2005
9 days of N.S (This is going to be long)
Finally the days come on 11th of January, I am finally going to the N.S. Well, morning, stomach still feels a little uncomfortable. But, early in the morning, eat some breakfast with my parents at Sembawang Hill Centre. Then we go to the medicated shop (Chinese), to get some powder or PoChe Yi. Sometimes, I have to trust Chinese medicine more than Western, as Chinese focus more on long-term benefits while the Western focus a lot on immediate cure without having frequent thought of serious relapse or even side-effects. Anyway, after gobbling down three packets, 1 before I walk in and 2 during my service for the 1st 2 days, I feel so much better that I am completely cured of diarrhoea. Well, Chinese do indeed overmodes Western medicines sometimes.
Anyway, while I am enlisted, I feel really grateful to Aman. (Please don't anyhow think or anyhow thought. Ok ...) Well, at least she is the only friend on that day to send me a good will message while she goes after Wo Bin or even Toro or other superstars lah. Of course not forgetting my other friends like Adam and Pratheepan, who have sent me the night before I walk in even when they are already in barracks. Special mention to other people like Tara and to many other more which I do not have the time, energy and effort to type it all out. Without all your blessings, I will not have survive these 10 days blissfully. (Hey, this is LAME! Like I am giving out awards ...)
Anyway, the 1st day I go in, I am absolutely blurred like Sotong like those F.I(Field Instructor) says. I believe many other more people will be like me. I remember we go in, then we have to stripped as the police officers (or constables) want to check our body whether we have any tatoos.
Haha, of course I don't have and so, proceed on smoothly. Then, after signing some particulars, and keep on rehearsing the police oath of allegence and Singapore National songs, the rest of the time, we are kept waiting. The 1st day is mostly waiting, even we have to waited for around 3 hrs for our hair to be cut botak (Not bald, got leave some hair. We better life now and moreover we are police, Hah) A lot of administration work, and also I am in squad 1/2005, which is supposedly a fit squad. We have squad 1,2,3 as OCT targets, that means we may have a chance to go into officer course and be promoted to Very high ranking junior officers like Station inspector or higher. But chance are rare, only 2 are chosen every years. As the other that formed the bulk of the OCT cadets, will be from rejects from OCS (Army officers) or chosen from army.
But good news, is our superintedent want to challenge the army, as they think that we should be given more chance. This is good, but we will have to make do with it and work out the best. Our courses are also the first to be tried, that means very compact, from 6 mths course scaled down to 3 mth courses. Haha. I really thought that I am in JC, with a very busy schedule and study life. Except this time, we have practices of guns of Tarus 85 revolver and police defensive tactics. And other things.
It is really impossible to go on blabbering the 10 wonderful days I have gone through, but to keep things short, I have made many friends (Of course from my squads). As OCT squad, naturally, we are classified according to JC and Diploma or fit squad (Which hell lot give us stress when FI use it to mock us). So, we naturally can get along with one another and we are guai (Or good) child.
Anyway, got to meet Yong Cheun. Dun knoe lucky or suai. Meet him, same CCA, same school, and now same squad, same bunk and same bed. Haha. This may be what I call fate. Haha.
Anyway, we got some tekang, P.T and many courses. Of course for these 9 days (We are supposed to have confinements for the 1st 10 days together with the Prep course(Those who enter 1 month before us as they fail NAPHA purposely or tactifully or forcefully). But our batch gains as we have Hari Raya to save us. Kudos to Haji!
Our squads are quite organised with some exceptions on clear occasions. Our squad is quite spontaneous also, volunteering responsibility unlike NYJC. We are also cajoled by DSP to be more intitative so that police can challenge army in terms of number of people entering OCT. We actually have aimed to be the best squad and company coy. We also have good F.I, and the kindest F.I that is in charge of us. Our OC squad is also very good. We have love marching also, with many Melayu commands. Haha. I learnt a lot and make many friends, plus, the mess food is still okay, is edible and taste better than the previous batch as claimed by my seniors.
But, what I will want to focus is the ghost stories I have listened, and squad memebers that have said that they see something dirty.
Squad 3 member say that at night, while he is sleeping. Suddenly in the middle of the night he saw one of the figure with long hair walking towards one of his friend's bunk. Another say that while he is sleeping peacefully in the middle of the night, when suddenly he realise that his pillow on his side when his head did not fully touch the entire surface of pillow, is compressed. He dare not turn to look. But he merely fake asleep. But while his head is tilted to the left, his right is definitely compressed. He is damn afraid. Now in my bunk, my friends when they woke up say two baby foot steps on an empty bunk bed (Not all bunk beds are filled up). And immediately we have many conclusions and postulations. Even the prep course ppl also told us stories. That is in the middle of the night, when we look out of the window, sometimes, we will see one grandma and a small young girl waving. Whar we should do is we should wave back, and say that we are asleep and busy, or else ....
Even our room 4 is always locked. The prep courses ppl also tells us that the room 4 is always locked, to our sudden realisation and utter dismay. It is rumoured that this building of our Delta coy has been used for storage of serial killers items before including Adrian Lim, thus this may be the reason for so many sightings.
But, hai~~. Dirty is dirty already. For the next 3 mths, I will have to settle in that bunk. Good thing of me is that I always wear my amulet before I sleep. Even when I get up to toilet alone, I have not encountered (Thanks goodness).
Well, many of my friends sleep together by moving their portable bed onto the floors and sleep together. Our bed is in double deck, thus, many of friends believe in huddling together to seek protection. (Which is the psychology of the people since our ancestors)
Well, and because of a very scary story, al of us have made it a point that whatever we do, we must set a code when waking up buddy to go to toilets in the middle of the nights in pairs.
Story goes like this. There is this guy in the army school 1. (Wonder why school 1 is always so dirty, should know why) One day, his "buddy" wake him up, as they are going to a toilet to pee. Then, sleepily, outside the cubicle, he waited for a long moment. He asked, "Are u ready or not?" The person replied he was ok. Then he waited again for a long long time, he ask again, then he get the same answer. Then, for the third long time, he get the same answer. He could not be patient anymore and decided to look into the cubicle to see what his friend is doing. There are 2 versions to these story.
One version is that he use chin up over the door and look inside. He saw a satanic, or a man cloaked in black. The other say that he look below the door, and did not see any legs. But for both versions, that thing give back the same question. That is ... "Have U guessed my identity now? Do u know who I am now ...."
Well, needless to say that guy feel creepy and run back to the bunk, and to his dismay, found his friend sleeping like a pig just before his bed.
So, this is why we set a code and special signals so as to indicate that you are the real "buddy". Ha. Really very creepy, nearly cannot sleep last night. I will have to stay in that bunk for another 3 months, so hope that everything will be fine. :)
Now, feel extremely tired. Keep typing my entry for this N.S blog. Haha. Going to turn from a boy to a Man, so (without further ado), I will stop yapping, and wish Arigo Para Slempre !!!
Anyway, while I am enlisted, I feel really grateful to Aman. (Please don't anyhow think or anyhow thought. Ok ...) Well, at least she is the only friend on that day to send me a good will message while she goes after Wo Bin or even Toro or other superstars lah. Of course not forgetting my other friends like Adam and Pratheepan, who have sent me the night before I walk in even when they are already in barracks. Special mention to other people like Tara and to many other more which I do not have the time, energy and effort to type it all out. Without all your blessings, I will not have survive these 10 days blissfully. (Hey, this is LAME! Like I am giving out awards ...)
Anyway, the 1st day I go in, I am absolutely blurred like Sotong like those F.I(Field Instructor) says. I believe many other more people will be like me. I remember we go in, then we have to stripped as the police officers (or constables) want to check our body whether we have any tatoos.
Haha, of course I don't have and so, proceed on smoothly. Then, after signing some particulars, and keep on rehearsing the police oath of allegence and Singapore National songs, the rest of the time, we are kept waiting. The 1st day is mostly waiting, even we have to waited for around 3 hrs for our hair to be cut botak (Not bald, got leave some hair. We better life now and moreover we are police, Hah) A lot of administration work, and also I am in squad 1/2005, which is supposedly a fit squad. We have squad 1,2,3 as OCT targets, that means we may have a chance to go into officer course and be promoted to Very high ranking junior officers like Station inspector or higher. But chance are rare, only 2 are chosen every years. As the other that formed the bulk of the OCT cadets, will be from rejects from OCS (Army officers) or chosen from army.
But good news, is our superintedent want to challenge the army, as they think that we should be given more chance. This is good, but we will have to make do with it and work out the best. Our courses are also the first to be tried, that means very compact, from 6 mths course scaled down to 3 mth courses. Haha. I really thought that I am in JC, with a very busy schedule and study life. Except this time, we have practices of guns of Tarus 85 revolver and police defensive tactics. And other things.
It is really impossible to go on blabbering the 10 wonderful days I have gone through, but to keep things short, I have made many friends (Of course from my squads). As OCT squad, naturally, we are classified according to JC and Diploma or fit squad (Which hell lot give us stress when FI use it to mock us). So, we naturally can get along with one another and we are guai (Or good) child.
Anyway, got to meet Yong Cheun. Dun knoe lucky or suai. Meet him, same CCA, same school, and now same squad, same bunk and same bed. Haha. This may be what I call fate. Haha.
Anyway, we got some tekang, P.T and many courses. Of course for these 9 days (We are supposed to have confinements for the 1st 10 days together with the Prep course(Those who enter 1 month before us as they fail NAPHA purposely or tactifully or forcefully). But our batch gains as we have Hari Raya to save us. Kudos to Haji!
Our squads are quite organised with some exceptions on clear occasions. Our squad is quite spontaneous also, volunteering responsibility unlike NYJC. We are also cajoled by DSP to be more intitative so that police can challenge army in terms of number of people entering OCT. We actually have aimed to be the best squad and company coy. We also have good F.I, and the kindest F.I that is in charge of us. Our OC squad is also very good. We have love marching also, with many Melayu commands. Haha. I learnt a lot and make many friends, plus, the mess food is still okay, is edible and taste better than the previous batch as claimed by my seniors.
But, what I will want to focus is the ghost stories I have listened, and squad memebers that have said that they see something dirty.
Squad 3 member say that at night, while he is sleeping. Suddenly in the middle of the night he saw one of the figure with long hair walking towards one of his friend's bunk. Another say that while he is sleeping peacefully in the middle of the night, when suddenly he realise that his pillow on his side when his head did not fully touch the entire surface of pillow, is compressed. He dare not turn to look. But he merely fake asleep. But while his head is tilted to the left, his right is definitely compressed. He is damn afraid. Now in my bunk, my friends when they woke up say two baby foot steps on an empty bunk bed (Not all bunk beds are filled up). And immediately we have many conclusions and postulations. Even the prep course ppl also told us stories. That is in the middle of the night, when we look out of the window, sometimes, we will see one grandma and a small young girl waving. Whar we should do is we should wave back, and say that we are asleep and busy, or else ....
Even our room 4 is always locked. The prep courses ppl also tells us that the room 4 is always locked, to our sudden realisation and utter dismay. It is rumoured that this building of our Delta coy has been used for storage of serial killers items before including Adrian Lim, thus this may be the reason for so many sightings.
But, hai~~. Dirty is dirty already. For the next 3 mths, I will have to settle in that bunk. Good thing of me is that I always wear my amulet before I sleep. Even when I get up to toilet alone, I have not encountered (Thanks goodness).
Well, many of my friends sleep together by moving their portable bed onto the floors and sleep together. Our bed is in double deck, thus, many of friends believe in huddling together to seek protection. (Which is the psychology of the people since our ancestors)
Well, and because of a very scary story, al of us have made it a point that whatever we do, we must set a code when waking up buddy to go to toilets in the middle of the nights in pairs.
Story goes like this. There is this guy in the army school 1. (Wonder why school 1 is always so dirty, should know why) One day, his "buddy" wake him up, as they are going to a toilet to pee. Then, sleepily, outside the cubicle, he waited for a long moment. He asked, "Are u ready or not?" The person replied he was ok. Then he waited again for a long long time, he ask again, then he get the same answer. Then, for the third long time, he get the same answer. He could not be patient anymore and decided to look into the cubicle to see what his friend is doing. There are 2 versions to these story.
One version is that he use chin up over the door and look inside. He saw a satanic, or a man cloaked in black. The other say that he look below the door, and did not see any legs. But for both versions, that thing give back the same question. That is ... "Have U guessed my identity now? Do u know who I am now ...."
Well, needless to say that guy feel creepy and run back to the bunk, and to his dismay, found his friend sleeping like a pig just before his bed.
So, this is why we set a code and special signals so as to indicate that you are the real "buddy". Ha. Really very creepy, nearly cannot sleep last night. I will have to stay in that bunk for another 3 months, so hope that everything will be fine. :)
Now, feel extremely tired. Keep typing my entry for this N.S blog. Haha. Going to turn from a boy to a Man, so (without further ado), I will stop yapping, and wish Arigo Para Slempre !!!
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
The beginning and the end ....
My diarrhoea continues, from yesterday night until now. An average of 1 hour and 99% liquified waste. Hai~~ Quite worrying because 2molow is my 1st day to N.S. But, have to take things in stride.
Today, going to that temple house to get the flowers. Get some charms. To many of the people, they may think what I do is stupid, but if you feel good, no harm, have faith, feel lucky and confident, why not. Moreover the flower bath is also very soothing. Good for my mental physiology when my physical is not 100% now.
Anyway, I feel rather nostalgic. Going to N.S. For the 3rd time in my life, have to admit that this is going to be one of the turning point of my life. Going to do something different, expectations of me will also be different. And I am adult ...
Haha... Anyway, for that swan story, I got a very evil thought loh. That is that Intermediate duckling will continue to grow, into swan within 2 years, and hope that that swan will not find another male swan. Then, after 2 years, that new graceful swan(hopefully) from the intermediate duckling will try to contact with this swan, and works things out. But anyway, still hope for the best for that swan, and happiness is its, grab it !!!
My dream, I must fulfill it. I have disappointed many, piss off many, lame many. What I aim to be is to bring joy and wonder to many, return my obligation to my society and family. Haha, big dreams...
Anyway, today after eat already. Spent my entire afternoon, preparing all my N.S stuffs. It is like going to camp, except for this time it is not purely for fun but also a serious job to do. Packing things, using goose-scenario technique, where every single things possible.
But a consolation is I will be meeting Yong Cheun in my team. He confirm same team with me. Haha. Though he will really want to be a pilot. But anyway, 2molow we will be in police BMT, so for the 3 months, I confirm meet him loh. And also, I will be choosing land over sea in police. Even though from an information source, sea has free motor boat license, free lunch and also higher salary (Going by more than $100 per month), but I think going on land will suits me fine. Driving license may be limited also for the land people, but hey, you gain some and you lose some.
This will be my last entry perhaps until Hari Raya (which I think got a high chance of getting guard duty, as I am not Malay), so Chinese New Year. Imbued with a sense of nostalgic, it will be time for me to gorw up, from boy to Man, for an 18 year old teenager to 28 year old adult and from caterpillar to butterfly.
Hai~~. I have many regrets, and I am poignant. But hey, past is past, and I have to look forwards to the future. May Ameigo Paras Sempre (Pratheepan say this is correct, but anyway, I use my own idiosyncrasies which is the correct pronunciation), Be with all of my friends. Haha.
Arigo Para Slempre, Friends for life just a summer or a spring, Arigo Para Slempre !!!
Today, going to that temple house to get the flowers. Get some charms. To many of the people, they may think what I do is stupid, but if you feel good, no harm, have faith, feel lucky and confident, why not. Moreover the flower bath is also very soothing. Good for my mental physiology when my physical is not 100% now.
Anyway, I feel rather nostalgic. Going to N.S. For the 3rd time in my life, have to admit that this is going to be one of the turning point of my life. Going to do something different, expectations of me will also be different. And I am adult ...
Haha... Anyway, for that swan story, I got a very evil thought loh. That is that Intermediate duckling will continue to grow, into swan within 2 years, and hope that that swan will not find another male swan. Then, after 2 years, that new graceful swan(hopefully) from the intermediate duckling will try to contact with this swan, and works things out. But anyway, still hope for the best for that swan, and happiness is its, grab it !!!
My dream, I must fulfill it. I have disappointed many, piss off many, lame many. What I aim to be is to bring joy and wonder to many, return my obligation to my society and family. Haha, big dreams...
Anyway, today after eat already. Spent my entire afternoon, preparing all my N.S stuffs. It is like going to camp, except for this time it is not purely for fun but also a serious job to do. Packing things, using goose-scenario technique, where every single things possible.
But a consolation is I will be meeting Yong Cheun in my team. He confirm same team with me. Haha. Though he will really want to be a pilot. But anyway, 2molow we will be in police BMT, so for the 3 months, I confirm meet him loh. And also, I will be choosing land over sea in police. Even though from an information source, sea has free motor boat license, free lunch and also higher salary (Going by more than $100 per month), but I think going on land will suits me fine. Driving license may be limited also for the land people, but hey, you gain some and you lose some.
This will be my last entry perhaps until Hari Raya (which I think got a high chance of getting guard duty, as I am not Malay), so Chinese New Year. Imbued with a sense of nostalgic, it will be time for me to gorw up, from boy to Man, for an 18 year old teenager to 28 year old adult and from caterpillar to butterfly.
Hai~~. I have many regrets, and I am poignant. But hey, past is past, and I have to look forwards to the future. May Ameigo Paras Sempre (Pratheepan say this is correct, but anyway, I use my own idiosyncrasies which is the correct pronunciation), Be with all of my friends. Haha.
Arigo Para Slempre, Friends for life just a summer or a spring, Arigo Para Slempre !!!
Monday, January 10, 2005
Diarrhoea onslaught ...
Buay tahan! Just know this will come. After my bacteria cold which luckily did not turn to pneumonia, I just know that diarrhoea will follow. Hai'~ Quite worrying, as 2 days later N.S. But anyway, when the ship reach the harbour, it will go straight.
So, morning come, as usual, diarrhoea. Drink Hundred Plus, as it contains good stuff that can help cure me but to no avial. Afternoon, goes to Suntec Convention Hall, as I want to buy some good, cheap old books or magazines. Just cannot find what I want, especially Science magazines like New Scientist.
Then go to Chinatown, somehow Ling Yu claim she saw me. Sms me. Order some Chee Long Fang, with my cousins.
Do you realise why I am typing this way? Boring, stupid and undescribable. Because I am sick, physically and mentally.
Anyway, just realise that the I.d cannot fully forget the swan. Really hope that when the I.d grows up to become a Swan itself, it can meet the swan and live with it happily together. But, only fairy tales have this ending. Real life does not have. Hai!!. Just hope that I can enter Manhood asap.
Arigo Paras Slempre!!! For I am in a dull mood. Got "taoed" by Alvin, who must have got sick with me. For reporting everything to him. Hahaha. Pissing him off. I must change though. I must stop pissing people off. Must remember my promise to change for the better. May all of us be blessed ....
So, morning come, as usual, diarrhoea. Drink Hundred Plus, as it contains good stuff that can help cure me but to no avial. Afternoon, goes to Suntec Convention Hall, as I want to buy some good, cheap old books or magazines. Just cannot find what I want, especially Science magazines like New Scientist.
Then go to Chinatown, somehow Ling Yu claim she saw me. Sms me. Order some Chee Long Fang, with my cousins.
Do you realise why I am typing this way? Boring, stupid and undescribable. Because I am sick, physically and mentally.
Anyway, just realise that the I.d cannot fully forget the swan. Really hope that when the I.d grows up to become a Swan itself, it can meet the swan and live with it happily together. But, only fairy tales have this ending. Real life does not have. Hai!!. Just hope that I can enter Manhood asap.
Arigo Paras Slempre!!! For I am in a dull mood. Got "taoed" by Alvin, who must have got sick with me. For reporting everything to him. Hahaha. Pissing him off. I must change though. I must stop pissing people off. Must remember my promise to change for the better. May all of us be blessed ....
Sunday, January 09, 2005
Feeling better ...
This morning, feel a little bit better. Must have been the medicine. Strangely, I realise I keep remembering the U.d and the swan's story. But somehow, I realise that the U.d is slowly changing and growing for the better. Hey, this is good. Just have to comfort U.d itself that to stop remember the sad story and continue with life. As a true man, sometimes it is wise to pick up a thing, but know when to put it down. The problem is that U.d did not pick up anything as there is nothing for it to pick up. Haha. But luckily, I myself can feel that U.d is becoming Intermediate duckling (I.d). So, enough of this I.d ....
Anyway, today is also quite a normal day. Just realise 3 days more to N.S, so want to spend more time with my familes, and also even if I cannot accompany my friends, at least I want to chat with them through msn.
Nonetheless, I go to a house temple, a house that holds the gods, to cleanse my souls. To many of my friends, they may feel this type of house temples are unholy, but I beg to differ. If there is no harm done, and people feel good and uncomfortable, then let it be. This is however I firmly believe as to why Singapore government will allow this type of house temples to continue. We cannot kill someone's faith, or forcefully judge others using our only narrow mentality and perception.
Ok, so at that house temple at Thomson, very near Jethro's house, I go in and cleanse myself. My mum help me to pray for a joss sticks. I get number 74. And this means I will be on and well, as long as I am discern. Before I go to this house temple, I eat duck noddles with my family outside. Talking about traditional food, this is one of the older duck scent. If one day I got a girlfriend, I will surely bring her there. Anyway, I will also invite my friends to there sometimes.
After going to the temple, I go home then go to my cousin's house. Got to input my readings on "coaching techniques" for the edification now. Basically, at cousin's house, just keep watching movies like pokemon and Monster Incorp. Haha! I am still young at heart ....
Anyway, Arigo Para Slempre again ....
Anyway, today is also quite a normal day. Just realise 3 days more to N.S, so want to spend more time with my familes, and also even if I cannot accompany my friends, at least I want to chat with them through msn.
Nonetheless, I go to a house temple, a house that holds the gods, to cleanse my souls. To many of my friends, they may feel this type of house temples are unholy, but I beg to differ. If there is no harm done, and people feel good and uncomfortable, then let it be. This is however I firmly believe as to why Singapore government will allow this type of house temples to continue. We cannot kill someone's faith, or forcefully judge others using our only narrow mentality and perception.
Ok, so at that house temple at Thomson, very near Jethro's house, I go in and cleanse myself. My mum help me to pray for a joss sticks. I get number 74. And this means I will be on and well, as long as I am discern. Before I go to this house temple, I eat duck noddles with my family outside. Talking about traditional food, this is one of the older duck scent. If one day I got a girlfriend, I will surely bring her there. Anyway, I will also invite my friends to there sometimes.
After going to the temple, I go home then go to my cousin's house. Got to input my readings on "coaching techniques" for the edification now. Basically, at cousin's house, just keep watching movies like pokemon and Monster Incorp. Haha! I am still young at heart ....
Anyway, Arigo Para Slempre again ....
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Sick me ....
I am feeling very sick todae. Spent most of my time, sleeping and recuperating in the afternoon. Dun knoe why, I was okay in the morning, helping my mum with the household chores. My situation is quite worrying, I do not want to bring my illness into National Service.
I wanna knoe what I contracted, wonder whether it is viral in nature. If it is viral, then it is going to be very picky. Dun knoe why, keep shivering, then fever. This, I have read up, is a form of body defense. While just now, in the late evening, I thought my illness has subsided, fever abated, and I feel relatively better. But, in a short span of 1 hr, suddenly my shivering come back. Realise by inflammation, confirm will have fever later. Even now, as I am inputing, I feel very uncomfortable. Clad in my jacket(Because I feel cold though the weather might not be cold), I am typing this account. It is very worrying, hope that by 2molow, I will be okay. Just want to build on my immune system, before getting in. Just see doctor only, a private one, sometimes realising private may be more expensive, but their services are better. They give me antibiotics, to which I realise my illness is bacterial. Must drink more water though.
Try to enrich myself during this period of uncomfort, but to no avail. Just hope and I hope ....
Arigo Para Slempre !!!!
I wanna knoe what I contracted, wonder whether it is viral in nature. If it is viral, then it is going to be very picky. Dun knoe why, keep shivering, then fever. This, I have read up, is a form of body defense. While just now, in the late evening, I thought my illness has subsided, fever abated, and I feel relatively better. But, in a short span of 1 hr, suddenly my shivering come back. Realise by inflammation, confirm will have fever later. Even now, as I am inputing, I feel very uncomfortable. Clad in my jacket(Because I feel cold though the weather might not be cold), I am typing this account. It is very worrying, hope that by 2molow, I will be okay. Just want to build on my immune system, before getting in. Just see doctor only, a private one, sometimes realising private may be more expensive, but their services are better. They give me antibiotics, to which I realise my illness is bacterial. Must drink more water though.
Try to enrich myself during this period of uncomfort, but to no avail. Just hope and I hope ....
Arigo Para Slempre !!!!
Friday, January 07, 2005
5 days before my N.S
I have set all my dreams. Realise Eternity is mine, and I am going to grab it. I am a Lions ..... Roar.
Going to continue to set a course, for sec 1, fornightly, while I at N.S. Think I can cope, and as a Lion, I must strive forward, just like Singa - pore.
Anyway today, very normal lifestyle. Still a little shaken by the ugly duckling and the swan story, but life goes on. What matter most is in the end, ugly duckling and the swan are still friends. That is good.
Go out to my aunt's house, the one which my uncle die because of sucide by carbon monoxide poisoning. Go to his house, afterwhich my aunt chat with my mother and and other aunt. Cannot believe how just a topic about money, the women can chat for it for 1 and a half hour. As we did not want to do it in the presence of that aunt who come from Thai, we stand below the flat, and I stand there like an army and listen to their conversation in Hokkien.
Then, we go for dinner, my aunt, mum and I go to the Ang Mo Kio hawker centre, to eat that vegetarian food. It is very nice, if I have a girlfriend next time, I will surely bring her there.
Anyway, very boring and normal diary, realise going to N.S very soon. To which, I will try to write out my activities everyday. My experiences also ....
Hahaha, Arigo Para Slempre or (Ameigo Paras Sempre !!!), to my blog and the readers....
Going to continue to set a course, for sec 1, fornightly, while I at N.S. Think I can cope, and as a Lion, I must strive forward, just like Singa - pore.
Anyway today, very normal lifestyle. Still a little shaken by the ugly duckling and the swan story, but life goes on. What matter most is in the end, ugly duckling and the swan are still friends. That is good.
Go out to my aunt's house, the one which my uncle die because of sucide by carbon monoxide poisoning. Go to his house, afterwhich my aunt chat with my mother and and other aunt. Cannot believe how just a topic about money, the women can chat for it for 1 and a half hour. As we did not want to do it in the presence of that aunt who come from Thai, we stand below the flat, and I stand there like an army and listen to their conversation in Hokkien.
Then, we go for dinner, my aunt, mum and I go to the Ang Mo Kio hawker centre, to eat that vegetarian food. It is very nice, if I have a girlfriend next time, I will surely bring her there.
Anyway, very boring and normal diary, realise going to N.S very soon. To which, I will try to write out my activities everyday. My experiences also ....
Hahaha, Arigo Para Slempre or (Ameigo Paras Sempre !!!), to my blog and the readers....
Thursday, January 06, 2005
I Dream ....
I dream, I can fly, like a wing, and be strong, when my heart, just want to give it away ....
Alas, Dreams are for 1 to fulfill. Dreams are for humans to desire. However dreams may not come true. But nevertheless, I will strive to enhance it.
For many a times, I have warned myself that different issues are meant to be dealt with separately, just like different people have different treatments.
I regret bullying people, and this is why I swear not to talk bad about other people from now on today, including Xuan De whom I keep accusing him as Alien.
I, myself is not perfect, and vow to change myself for the betterment. Competence is a must, but human's gut instinct is an imperative.
Ugly duckling might have been too rush, it might have pissed off other people especially the swan though the U.d may not have meant it. But the U.d understand the swan's intention, for it is the U.d's fault in the first place. Another explanation might have spanned out from, love is a different thing.
But, the swan has told U.d that it did not like it without any reason yet apparent. Worst still, it is a big handsome bull that tell U.d about the fact. U.d definitely did not blame anyone or how. It is just that somethings should have happened by its own. Thus, this U.d vow to be a graceful swan, and it is slowly growing up. From boy to man, from child to adult. It is time to wake up, and keep life going.
But, U.d still wants to maintain a friendship with the swan. Swan may have rejected it, but it still wants to be friend. U.d knows its own limits and will never probe any further. A graceful swan should have a better candidate for partners, instead of U.d. But nevertheless, U.d believes that it will grow up, and hope that everyone will be happy, find their desired happiness and continue to be friends. U.d will not be like a horrible toad, lusting after the swan. What the U.d wants to tell the swan is don't be too superficial, and after finding your "target", just be slow and careful. Be discern also. And as swan is beautiful and good enough, it will surely get the "swan" it desires.
Anyway, base on the above story, I have realised that I am that U.d. But, I am willing to change and grow up. I have been exceptionally strange and eccentric, until my friends stone me. They do not hate me, but neither do they like me. Especially that prom attire, it is very nice, and I look nice in that. But there is something that I lacks, that may be my action or ettiquette. Thus, what I lack may also be the charisma. Charisma can be trained but also in the upbringing of the person.
I am aware of this, and realise that other being humless, cool, stay steady, and an action and attitude that most of the people can tolerate or like is the one that I need. I have to change myself, not only for myself, family or friends. But also for my future girlfriend. The problem may be I change too slow. My change is also half-hearten, like a sissy. Thus, I will and must change better or best as fast as possible, with a good and light heart.
Also. Many a times, I depend too much on my friends, thus I should be more independent, though Chinese has a saying, that is at home, you rely your family; outside you rely on your friends.
I must also understand the meaning of love before I can truly love, especially a girl. I have experience many love except the steads love. Time is needed anyway. Like the U.d, it is hoped that I can changed into a graceful swan one day.
But right now, I am going to focus on the career. The SciFi. It keeps me going, anyway.
After blabbering everything I THOUGHT, Blog, I realise that I should stop pissing people off. Unlike Pratheepan who is really good and I admit, I cannot handle pisses well. So it is only that I stop playing with this fire. Pisses can be fun and good, but may also have side - effects. To me pisses can be equal to lame.
Hai!! Anyway, I go to school as usual today. Boring stuff. Meet many of my juniors and teachers. Asking for my enlistment date. A lot as usual tells me how lucky I am to enter police instead of tekong. As we go past J8, think of meeting a friend, but she is not there. Perhaps she did not work today which is pretty obvious. The reason, 2 of us know is enough. Pratheepan has already told me to which I understand.
But at the school library, Adam, Pratheepan and I set an agenda what we are supposed to do for our future. I am very ashamed that I have not set anydreams. I am in fact very impressed about 2 of them. Thus, I swear I must set my dreams for what I am going to do today. They have dreams like becoming millionare by 20s. And we set out what we are supposed to do to reach that target.
Due to some business personal matter, it will not be convenient and appropriate for me to talk to you.
Then, Adam and I go off first, to which I slack at his house for 1 hour. Then, we go to J8 again, to watch Kungfu Hustle. The show is quite nice, but in my view, is still second to Stephen Chow's former movie, Shaolin soccer.
Then, we go home, and I go to Woodlands library to return books for Adam, help Pratheeepan borrow books and also to enrich myself. And I basically come home and eat.
I am a little bit stunned off by the "news" (Dun think too much!!!) of myself. Perhaps it is time I should reflect on myself, and keeps life going at a good pace.
Arigo Para Slempre !!! My friend, my blog ....
Alas, Dreams are for 1 to fulfill. Dreams are for humans to desire. However dreams may not come true. But nevertheless, I will strive to enhance it.
For many a times, I have warned myself that different issues are meant to be dealt with separately, just like different people have different treatments.
I regret bullying people, and this is why I swear not to talk bad about other people from now on today, including Xuan De whom I keep accusing him as Alien.
I, myself is not perfect, and vow to change myself for the betterment. Competence is a must, but human's gut instinct is an imperative.
Ugly duckling might have been too rush, it might have pissed off other people especially the swan though the U.d may not have meant it. But the U.d understand the swan's intention, for it is the U.d's fault in the first place. Another explanation might have spanned out from, love is a different thing.
But, the swan has told U.d that it did not like it without any reason yet apparent. Worst still, it is a big handsome bull that tell U.d about the fact. U.d definitely did not blame anyone or how. It is just that somethings should have happened by its own. Thus, this U.d vow to be a graceful swan, and it is slowly growing up. From boy to man, from child to adult. It is time to wake up, and keep life going.
But, U.d still wants to maintain a friendship with the swan. Swan may have rejected it, but it still wants to be friend. U.d knows its own limits and will never probe any further. A graceful swan should have a better candidate for partners, instead of U.d. But nevertheless, U.d believes that it will grow up, and hope that everyone will be happy, find their desired happiness and continue to be friends. U.d will not be like a horrible toad, lusting after the swan. What the U.d wants to tell the swan is don't be too superficial, and after finding your "target", just be slow and careful. Be discern also. And as swan is beautiful and good enough, it will surely get the "swan" it desires.
Anyway, base on the above story, I have realised that I am that U.d. But, I am willing to change and grow up. I have been exceptionally strange and eccentric, until my friends stone me. They do not hate me, but neither do they like me. Especially that prom attire, it is very nice, and I look nice in that. But there is something that I lacks, that may be my action or ettiquette. Thus, what I lack may also be the charisma. Charisma can be trained but also in the upbringing of the person.
I am aware of this, and realise that other being humless, cool, stay steady, and an action and attitude that most of the people can tolerate or like is the one that I need. I have to change myself, not only for myself, family or friends. But also for my future girlfriend. The problem may be I change too slow. My change is also half-hearten, like a sissy. Thus, I will and must change better or best as fast as possible, with a good and light heart.
Also. Many a times, I depend too much on my friends, thus I should be more independent, though Chinese has a saying, that is at home, you rely your family; outside you rely on your friends.
I must also understand the meaning of love before I can truly love, especially a girl. I have experience many love except the steads love. Time is needed anyway. Like the U.d, it is hoped that I can changed into a graceful swan one day.
But right now, I am going to focus on the career. The SciFi. It keeps me going, anyway.
After blabbering everything I THOUGHT, Blog, I realise that I should stop pissing people off. Unlike Pratheepan who is really good and I admit, I cannot handle pisses well. So it is only that I stop playing with this fire. Pisses can be fun and good, but may also have side - effects. To me pisses can be equal to lame.
Hai!! Anyway, I go to school as usual today. Boring stuff. Meet many of my juniors and teachers. Asking for my enlistment date. A lot as usual tells me how lucky I am to enter police instead of tekong. As we go past J8, think of meeting a friend, but she is not there. Perhaps she did not work today which is pretty obvious. The reason, 2 of us know is enough. Pratheepan has already told me to which I understand.
But at the school library, Adam, Pratheepan and I set an agenda what we are supposed to do for our future. I am very ashamed that I have not set anydreams. I am in fact very impressed about 2 of them. Thus, I swear I must set my dreams for what I am going to do today. They have dreams like becoming millionare by 20s. And we set out what we are supposed to do to reach that target.
Due to some business personal matter, it will not be convenient and appropriate for me to talk to you.
Then, Adam and I go off first, to which I slack at his house for 1 hour. Then, we go to J8 again, to watch Kungfu Hustle. The show is quite nice, but in my view, is still second to Stephen Chow's former movie, Shaolin soccer.
Then, we go home, and I go to Woodlands library to return books for Adam, help Pratheeepan borrow books and also to enrich myself. And I basically come home and eat.
I am a little bit stunned off by the "news" (Dun think too much!!!) of myself. Perhaps it is time I should reflect on myself, and keeps life going at a good pace.
Arigo Para Slempre !!! My friend, my blog ....
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
The 1st ghost story
(Haha! Write out a ghost story for Amanda, just out of gratitude. Thanks her for making my New Year Eve unforgettable. Anyone can comment anything what I say. I am open, and will treat all opinions or criticism equally.)
The Ghost story of Tekong
There is a story on School 1, that is at Wednesday night, 12am, the toilet for the school 1 will have noises. Soldiers normally ignore this as they know this is something they do not want to find out. The third cubicle from the left will be locked, strangely every Wednesday 12am.
My senior, Chris, tells us why this type of strange occurence happens. Last time, 12 years ago, army life was still very harsh. Officers can torture a recruit mentally or physically. For those who pass, congratulations, they become a Man. But for those who cannot endure both physical and mental punishments, they broke down. Many turn mad, or some even commit sucide.
In this case, Senior Chris and a person (forget his name) is the same platoon recruits. This person has been tekang (or sabotage or tortured) by his officer. He fail to remember this or let things bygone. So on Wednesday night, when it is supposed to be rest time, the soldier (that person) hang himself on that third cubicle from the left at night.
Senior Chris happen to be the 1st person to find out about his friend's sucide and demise. He saw the ugly look and have to be sent to the psychatrists.
But from then on, strange things will have occurred. At that specific night (every weeks), sounds of tap water flowing can be heard. Some people claimed that they saw blood flowing out. And the third cubicle is always locked.
So there is this moron, (I call him Ah Seng), he claims to be the bravest person in the camp. He even boo his friends that there is no such things as ghosts. So on one thunderstorm, wednesday, midnight, he creep into the toilet alone, with some of his friends outside the toilet. Ah Seng creeps in and go to the second cubicle from the left. Then he stands on the cubicle and look over to the 3rd cubicle from the left, attempting to look inside.
After hours, Ah Seng still have not come out from the toilets. Then, his friends notify the officers and they go into the toilet. They saw, Ah Seng with a lunatic eyes. He was saying, "his eye and his tongue,nono ....". And when every1 shines the torch at him, or he is exposed to sunlight, he will yell like a mad man and become unstable. When anyone tries to near him, he will try to hit that person saying,"Stupid eyes and ears...". At other times, Ah Seng will become very withdrawn, cover himnself in blanket, very afraid of light and people (even his family).
This Ah Seng is still at woodbridge now, at the most tended and secure room.
This story tells us that whatever happens, it is sometimes not wise to act like a daredevil. Never dabble in this type of affair, though if you are forced to face it, just be calmed. But, never attempt to face it purposely.
Pity this Ah Seng, and luckily Senior Chris recover, but caution us about that school 1 cubicle. Now, we don't know whether that toilet has changed. But, remember, never play with fire if you don't want to get burned.
Diary:
My accounts 2dae, by no means are very normal. Early in the morning, do household chores. Up to afternoon, write the questions for SciFi Books, Challenge. Then, as I fall sick, (having slight cough and phlegm and blocked nose). Go to the clinic. Have to wait for so long, until I cannot tahan. In the end, have to end up paying $13, though this is more cheaper than private clinic, but the time make up for this. I rather go to private ones.
That doctor is nice though, asking about my details and enlistment, and saying how lucky I am, being enlisted in police where supposedly I am more free and have more time, which I take it to be slacker. The only good thing I can see is that if I were to have a girlfriend, I can have more time with her, more than the army guys. But 2 bad. Hah.
I accompany my mum though. So, also need to wait for her. She is going for a body check-up. Hope she is healthy and salubrious (learn a new word, come on) !!!
Now I am typing, and then later I will be going to a temple to pray, for my aftermath of exams and also for my enlistments.
As usual, Blog, Arigo Para Slempre !!!
The Ghost story of Tekong
There is a story on School 1, that is at Wednesday night, 12am, the toilet for the school 1 will have noises. Soldiers normally ignore this as they know this is something they do not want to find out. The third cubicle from the left will be locked, strangely every Wednesday 12am.
My senior, Chris, tells us why this type of strange occurence happens. Last time, 12 years ago, army life was still very harsh. Officers can torture a recruit mentally or physically. For those who pass, congratulations, they become a Man. But for those who cannot endure both physical and mental punishments, they broke down. Many turn mad, or some even commit sucide.
In this case, Senior Chris and a person (forget his name) is the same platoon recruits. This person has been tekang (or sabotage or tortured) by his officer. He fail to remember this or let things bygone. So on Wednesday night, when it is supposed to be rest time, the soldier (that person) hang himself on that third cubicle from the left at night.
Senior Chris happen to be the 1st person to find out about his friend's sucide and demise. He saw the ugly look and have to be sent to the psychatrists.
But from then on, strange things will have occurred. At that specific night (every weeks), sounds of tap water flowing can be heard. Some people claimed that they saw blood flowing out. And the third cubicle is always locked.
So there is this moron, (I call him Ah Seng), he claims to be the bravest person in the camp. He even boo his friends that there is no such things as ghosts. So on one thunderstorm, wednesday, midnight, he creep into the toilet alone, with some of his friends outside the toilet. Ah Seng creeps in and go to the second cubicle from the left. Then he stands on the cubicle and look over to the 3rd cubicle from the left, attempting to look inside.
After hours, Ah Seng still have not come out from the toilets. Then, his friends notify the officers and they go into the toilet. They saw, Ah Seng with a lunatic eyes. He was saying, "his eye and his tongue,nono ....". And when every1 shines the torch at him, or he is exposed to sunlight, he will yell like a mad man and become unstable. When anyone tries to near him, he will try to hit that person saying,"Stupid eyes and ears...". At other times, Ah Seng will become very withdrawn, cover himnself in blanket, very afraid of light and people (even his family).
This Ah Seng is still at woodbridge now, at the most tended and secure room.
This story tells us that whatever happens, it is sometimes not wise to act like a daredevil. Never dabble in this type of affair, though if you are forced to face it, just be calmed. But, never attempt to face it purposely.
Pity this Ah Seng, and luckily Senior Chris recover, but caution us about that school 1 cubicle. Now, we don't know whether that toilet has changed. But, remember, never play with fire if you don't want to get burned.
Diary:
My accounts 2dae, by no means are very normal. Early in the morning, do household chores. Up to afternoon, write the questions for SciFi Books, Challenge. Then, as I fall sick, (having slight cough and phlegm and blocked nose). Go to the clinic. Have to wait for so long, until I cannot tahan. In the end, have to end up paying $13, though this is more cheaper than private clinic, but the time make up for this. I rather go to private ones.
That doctor is nice though, asking about my details and enlistment, and saying how lucky I am, being enlisted in police where supposedly I am more free and have more time, which I take it to be slacker. The only good thing I can see is that if I were to have a girlfriend, I can have more time with her, more than the army guys. But 2 bad. Hah.
I accompany my mum though. So, also need to wait for her. She is going for a body check-up. Hope she is healthy and salubrious (learn a new word, come on) !!!
Now I am typing, and then later I will be going to a temple to pray, for my aftermath of exams and also for my enlistments.
As usual, Blog, Arigo Para Slempre !!!
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Going to N.S
This is probably going to be a lousy diary I am going to write. Well, as usual I meet my friends, Alvin and Pratheepan at the expo MRT station, and we go to the Yushen Global Logistics factory to help out. Today we do very slack things, unlike the containers we have done on New Year Eve. We pack clothes or whatever stuffs into boxes and put them on pellets. Jethro and Jeremy, and Bing Xiang come later, and we slack until we cannot tolerate anymore and go off at 3pm. That uncle tells us to come 2molow again, to which I cannot come, cause got something on.
Then, Pratheepan, Bing Xiang, Alvin and I go to the Beach Road to buy army stuffs. But in the 1st place, I am in police. So, it is extremely boring. Nothing exciting 2dae, though those peeps have plenty of gossips and stupid craps about A and B. Then, we go to Bugis Guan Yin Temple and also for me the Hindu Temple to pray. Then, we go off. Pretty boring huh? But, very busy, cannot spend so much time typing out diary. Haha. But, I will try my best man.
Again, arigo para slempre !!!
Then, Pratheepan, Bing Xiang, Alvin and I go to the Beach Road to buy army stuffs. But in the 1st place, I am in police. So, it is extremely boring. Nothing exciting 2dae, though those peeps have plenty of gossips and stupid craps about A and B. Then, we go to Bugis Guan Yin Temple and also for me the Hindu Temple to pray. Then, we go off. Pretty boring huh? But, very busy, cannot spend so much time typing out diary. Haha. But, I will try my best man.
Again, arigo para slempre !!!
Sunday, January 02, 2005
Many things 2dae
Hey, 2dae I have many occurences that I will never remember in my life. :) ...
In the morning, as usual, very normal. Go out with my family to eat breakfast at Yishun Wet Market. Always prefer hawker than anything else like restaurant. May be due to the fact they are chaeper, but also hawker has a special place in my heart. They are sort of different, even foods served are better and different. Yet, restaurant, it may be different, but the dear price is enough to scare u off. Hawker reminds me that I live a very comfortable life. I sometimes must knoe when to bear the uncomfort, like stuffiness and no air-con. Or grease atmosphere that make ppl feel sticky and oily. But, I love hawker anyway.
But i do acknowledge the importance of restaurant including fast food. Or else we will have lesser choices. Like any GP student, and also following my principle, I have sworn to be balance. So, restaurant is still vital, anyway, cos it provides a good atmosphere like air-con. Sometimes, the high standard one may be expensive but the atmosphere is really nice, with mellifluous music playing and also privacy. The foods are also always nice, though they are too dear for me. I understand the importance of this type of restaurant. Dun knoe why, Girls just like this type of restaurants. Hai~~.... But important to take note of this, as next time, must bring gf to both places, to taste the good and bad.
But, what I do not like is half-half. Like the food courts which you can find anywhere in Woodlands. They not only provide lousy atmosphere excluding air-con, but very expensive foods. Lousy foods also. And they are found everwhere taking away and over My Hawker centre. Thus, this is why I am jealous of other estates like bendemeer, Ang Mo Kio and Yishun. One day, I am going to live in those areas.
Anyway, 2dae i am representing a temple to go up on stage to get the plaques from MP, (Forget or just refuse to remember his name). Anyway, it is so strange, I even represent the association to give out the bersuary and scholarships to the recipients. Bet, if I meet any1 I knoe, they will be surprised. Hah. Anyway, I try to act like any other good VIP, give out the scholarships to those youngsters. The feeling is good, though in the 1st place I am relunctant to take up my role. Anyway, all ends well, and many people give me that peculiar look as to why I am so young yet I am a temple representatives. The others are Lao Ah Peh, only I am the most youngest and most handsome (Hahaha, very egoistic of me, shoot) one. They even ask me why can I be representatives, to which I smile and feel like telling them, fresh waves will eventually take over old waves. Anyway, I enter the refreshment room, to which I am also relunctant in the 1st place, because all of them are eminent. But nevertheless, my new year resolution is humless, so humless i must be. Following the principle of When the ship goes straight, only when i want it to be straight, and that when ship reaches harbour, it will automatically be straight, I walk in. Grab some food and eat. This is when the MP invites an Indonesian- borned Chinese to give us an account of the happenings in Indonesia after the Tsunami attack. He tells all of us, that Aceh, specifically, is absolutely devastated. The waves swept through 7 km inwards to shore, just like from East Coast to Balestier. The tsunami, destroys everything in the path. The people has no food to eat, and diseases are rampant. The aids are in fact enough. But coordination is lousy, and transportation is hard. Plus, many people become robbers. He tells us that when the foods are distributed by paths from the road, they are many people robbing the aids. Though there are gun-man on the aid vehicles, but they cannot fire, as those people who rob, may also be victims. We are there to help them not kill them. And so, almost half of the aids will have been robbed by the time it reaches the inland victims. I feel like asking questions on the possible ways to use parachute to deliver items from planes, but I am in a hurry to meet my aunt. And so, I forsake the question and I feel stupid. Because an unasked question, including "whether you love me" to a girls when unask, is stupid. But anyway, think the only effective ways will have been to deliver from backwards instead of land to prevent robbing. The Chinese are also victims in Aceh, as they are being targeted. The corpses that have decomposed are purposefully put before their shops for extortion of money from some Malay Bastards. Many Chinese fled. But for those who cannot, due to some reasons like business dealings, have to tolerate with this type of shits.
Then, I immediately go to lavender MRT station to meet some of my Sec 4 friends. Miss them though. We are going to watch the Myanmar vs Singapore Tiger Cup. They are plenty of things for me to input. I have to do this 2molow, as it is too late, and I have to wake up early 2molow for the volunteering work at Yunning Global logistic centre, for the packing of clothes to the tsunami victims.
Good nite, and as usual, arigoparaslempre !!!
(continued on 3/1)
Hey, about the myanmar vs Singapore match, it is one of the most dramatic show I have ever seen live at the stadium. Faking, throwing of bottles from the bench and 8 vs 11. Hah. This is really a rare occurence. Luckily I get out of there fast, like many other Singaporeans, we know that there may be a riot if we still do not scram off. Anyway, police is quite effective, standing between Singapore and Myanmar's crowds. A good way of preventing clashes. Plus, I was stopped by a police to surrender or throw away the plastic bottles. This is for fear as a weapon against the soccer players at the pitch. Though plastic bottles thowing is prevented, but people still throw paper cups and other things they can think of. This makes me think that what the police do are correct. Hai~~! Why must clashes occur everytime? It is just a soccer game. Really hope to see some improvements in the attitude of the people. Though we boos the Myanmar, but it is their action that makes us do this. But think Singapore scaring of the clashes are good, or the tense atmosphere will have erupted. Haha... Really hope Singapore can win the Tiger Cup, as I think Malaysia and Singapore, the arch - rivals will face to face in the finals.
In the morning, as usual, very normal. Go out with my family to eat breakfast at Yishun Wet Market. Always prefer hawker than anything else like restaurant. May be due to the fact they are chaeper, but also hawker has a special place in my heart. They are sort of different, even foods served are better and different. Yet, restaurant, it may be different, but the dear price is enough to scare u off. Hawker reminds me that I live a very comfortable life. I sometimes must knoe when to bear the uncomfort, like stuffiness and no air-con. Or grease atmosphere that make ppl feel sticky and oily. But, I love hawker anyway.
But i do acknowledge the importance of restaurant including fast food. Or else we will have lesser choices. Like any GP student, and also following my principle, I have sworn to be balance. So, restaurant is still vital, anyway, cos it provides a good atmosphere like air-con. Sometimes, the high standard one may be expensive but the atmosphere is really nice, with mellifluous music playing and also privacy. The foods are also always nice, though they are too dear for me. I understand the importance of this type of restaurant. Dun knoe why, Girls just like this type of restaurants. Hai~~.... But important to take note of this, as next time, must bring gf to both places, to taste the good and bad.
But, what I do not like is half-half. Like the food courts which you can find anywhere in Woodlands. They not only provide lousy atmosphere excluding air-con, but very expensive foods. Lousy foods also. And they are found everwhere taking away and over My Hawker centre. Thus, this is why I am jealous of other estates like bendemeer, Ang Mo Kio and Yishun. One day, I am going to live in those areas.
Anyway, 2dae i am representing a temple to go up on stage to get the plaques from MP, (Forget or just refuse to remember his name). Anyway, it is so strange, I even represent the association to give out the bersuary and scholarships to the recipients. Bet, if I meet any1 I knoe, they will be surprised. Hah. Anyway, I try to act like any other good VIP, give out the scholarships to those youngsters. The feeling is good, though in the 1st place I am relunctant to take up my role. Anyway, all ends well, and many people give me that peculiar look as to why I am so young yet I am a temple representatives. The others are Lao Ah Peh, only I am the most youngest and most handsome (Hahaha, very egoistic of me, shoot) one. They even ask me why can I be representatives, to which I smile and feel like telling them, fresh waves will eventually take over old waves. Anyway, I enter the refreshment room, to which I am also relunctant in the 1st place, because all of them are eminent. But nevertheless, my new year resolution is humless, so humless i must be. Following the principle of When the ship goes straight, only when i want it to be straight, and that when ship reaches harbour, it will automatically be straight, I walk in. Grab some food and eat. This is when the MP invites an Indonesian- borned Chinese to give us an account of the happenings in Indonesia after the Tsunami attack. He tells all of us, that Aceh, specifically, is absolutely devastated. The waves swept through 7 km inwards to shore, just like from East Coast to Balestier. The tsunami, destroys everything in the path. The people has no food to eat, and diseases are rampant. The aids are in fact enough. But coordination is lousy, and transportation is hard. Plus, many people become robbers. He tells us that when the foods are distributed by paths from the road, they are many people robbing the aids. Though there are gun-man on the aid vehicles, but they cannot fire, as those people who rob, may also be victims. We are there to help them not kill them. And so, almost half of the aids will have been robbed by the time it reaches the inland victims. I feel like asking questions on the possible ways to use parachute to deliver items from planes, but I am in a hurry to meet my aunt. And so, I forsake the question and I feel stupid. Because an unasked question, including "whether you love me" to a girls when unask, is stupid. But anyway, think the only effective ways will have been to deliver from backwards instead of land to prevent robbing. The Chinese are also victims in Aceh, as they are being targeted. The corpses that have decomposed are purposefully put before their shops for extortion of money from some Malay Bastards. Many Chinese fled. But for those who cannot, due to some reasons like business dealings, have to tolerate with this type of shits.
Then, I immediately go to lavender MRT station to meet some of my Sec 4 friends. Miss them though. We are going to watch the Myanmar vs Singapore Tiger Cup. They are plenty of things for me to input. I have to do this 2molow, as it is too late, and I have to wake up early 2molow for the volunteering work at Yunning Global logistic centre, for the packing of clothes to the tsunami victims.
Good nite, and as usual, arigoparaslempre !!!
(continued on 3/1)
Hey, about the myanmar vs Singapore match, it is one of the most dramatic show I have ever seen live at the stadium. Faking, throwing of bottles from the bench and 8 vs 11. Hah. This is really a rare occurence. Luckily I get out of there fast, like many other Singaporeans, we know that there may be a riot if we still do not scram off. Anyway, police is quite effective, standing between Singapore and Myanmar's crowds. A good way of preventing clashes. Plus, I was stopped by a police to surrender or throw away the plastic bottles. This is for fear as a weapon against the soccer players at the pitch. Though plastic bottles thowing is prevented, but people still throw paper cups and other things they can think of. This makes me think that what the police do are correct. Hai~~! Why must clashes occur everytime? It is just a soccer game. Really hope to see some improvements in the attitude of the people. Though we boos the Myanmar, but it is their action that makes us do this. But think Singapore scaring of the clashes are good, or the tense atmosphere will have erupted. Haha... Really hope Singapore can win the Tiger Cup, as I think Malaysia and Singapore, the arch - rivals will face to face in the finals.
Happy New Year 2005
Haha! Finally, I have grown up officially. No more can I enjoy student benefits. Hai~~. But, hey I am officially a grown-up. :) !!!! Anyway, 2dae new year, remember my resolution. And I am looking for inspiration, to think of questions for the Challenge book. Got to be financially independent as fast as possible. Feel realli bad always, getting money from my parents, when I think I can earn money at my age. And, if I am rich and affluent, not only can I provide for my family (and my future one, haha), but also to donate money to charity to do good deeds.
2dae, new year, yet do not have any activity that is worth even to mentioning. But, I go to my uncle's house for the new year celebration, cum the maid's birthday. Afterthat, come back and input this diary. Realise this time, that I am going to N.S very soon. Still pondering whether is it realli appropriate to have (if i can); or want to have (if i cannot) a girlfriend. Realise my one especially for 2 years, (REalli hope can last for lifetime). For me I am looking for LAST, NOT LUST. But I was immensely jerky. Always need 2 yrs to catch up. Must accelerate this.. :) . Anyway, have to keep things natural, only then can happiness be found. Rush things, end up exploding the balloon. Yet too slow, the balloon will not be expanding at the right size, and worst, other ppl will take over your place to blow the balloon, and you have to regret. So, it is imperative I have to keep things balance. If I have the means, and after finding out the Ways and the Truth about Balance, I will promote Balance as the harmonious philosophy.
Always use to be very sadden by my appearance, like pimples or whatever,, or why Heaven did not give me a good face or wat (which is totally crap, in fact, I am blessed with good physique or else why will Xuan de want to be me ... [Heehee]). Just realise, god (to me lady luck and probability) only smile, bless, look after, and follow those ppl who are sincere, who are benevolent, who take care of themselves. This is why, I must be confident (of course not so confident and become arrogant [This is stupid]). Haha. Moreover, after so many years, realise looks are very very deceptive. They do not last, even if you use desperate measures like operation or botox. But, appearance do matter, since I live in this society, and the golden rule is to follow some rules although they may be so stupid that I do want to adhere it in the 1st place. Anyway, I feel good, and that there is always uniqueness in me, and my idiosyncrasies. Hah. Feel confident. But if any1 think I am arrogant, pls correct me.
Anyway, remember, change is inevitable. Most important, we must change for the good, up the hill and definitely not down the slope. It is of utmost momentousness to remember a saying: If we do not change, we will die like a dinosaur. If we change too much, we will become radicle, always so unstable and dangerous. So, balance, though balance itself can be subjective.
I myself have read up a story. That's this A person meets this B person. For 2 times in "introduction programme". But this A, for the 1st time meet B, already like B, and knoe that B is the right person for him. But, this A dun knoe why, is still a small little innocent young kid, and a jerk. Always like to tao people. So when B actually say hello to this A, this A somehow dun knoe why he did not respond. B misunderstand or nonchalant or whatever, and thus never talk to A, and they become strangers (though they knoe each other). But strangely, they have many things in common. This A realise he has been dao, but realise that he has never means to tao B. Becos, B is hahah, has some special height, so when B waves, A did not see and pay for it. As A himself has also some special height. Hah. So for the next 2 years, A has to pin for B. And soon news spread around. A understand that for this 2 years, B will realli want to study. Haha. So he did not do anything. He instead vow to be a better man for his 2004 New year resolution. He has indeed become (Judge from himself, but ... hah) better, even for a smidgen of it. As B is really so "unique", naturally B will have other admirers. A has even some friends from these admirers so has to feel exasperated. But life goes on. A keeps thing under wraps, so as to make sure that B's reputation will not be tarnished. However A is hum, so ... Haha. So, come the annual "Gathering for food". A still did not make the iniative. And he pays for it. Anyway, A thought B got a date. Hah. But B did not have anyway. Moreover A got very important things to do the next day. But A is till hum. He come to his realisation, knoe that hum will never bring him far. It is important to be slightly thick-skinned at times. Hai~~ for him. Finally due to some fate, A manage talk to B again. Haha. But, A still have not much progress with B, but can only say cool and steady wins the game.
Looking at "this story", I have learnt a lot. In fact, cool and steady wins the game, I learnt this but must not abuse. In fact, it should be, only when u realli want to drive the ship, then when the ship reach the harbour, it will go straight. In fact, I hope that that A will continue to be a better man, has his prospect great.
Great! Life goes on, let's hope I can make full use of it! Hah. Arigo Para Slempre, my friends, my blog.
2dae, new year, yet do not have any activity that is worth even to mentioning. But, I go to my uncle's house for the new year celebration, cum the maid's birthday. Afterthat, come back and input this diary. Realise this time, that I am going to N.S very soon. Still pondering whether is it realli appropriate to have (if i can); or want to have (if i cannot) a girlfriend. Realise my one especially for 2 years, (REalli hope can last for lifetime). For me I am looking for LAST, NOT LUST. But I was immensely jerky. Always need 2 yrs to catch up. Must accelerate this.. :) . Anyway, have to keep things natural, only then can happiness be found. Rush things, end up exploding the balloon. Yet too slow, the balloon will not be expanding at the right size, and worst, other ppl will take over your place to blow the balloon, and you have to regret. So, it is imperative I have to keep things balance. If I have the means, and after finding out the Ways and the Truth about Balance, I will promote Balance as the harmonious philosophy.
Always use to be very sadden by my appearance, like pimples or whatever,, or why Heaven did not give me a good face or wat (which is totally crap, in fact, I am blessed with good physique or else why will Xuan de want to be me ... [Heehee]). Just realise, god (to me lady luck and probability) only smile, bless, look after, and follow those ppl who are sincere, who are benevolent, who take care of themselves. This is why, I must be confident (of course not so confident and become arrogant [This is stupid]). Haha. Moreover, after so many years, realise looks are very very deceptive. They do not last, even if you use desperate measures like operation or botox. But, appearance do matter, since I live in this society, and the golden rule is to follow some rules although they may be so stupid that I do want to adhere it in the 1st place. Anyway, I feel good, and that there is always uniqueness in me, and my idiosyncrasies. Hah. Feel confident. But if any1 think I am arrogant, pls correct me.
Anyway, remember, change is inevitable. Most important, we must change for the good, up the hill and definitely not down the slope. It is of utmost momentousness to remember a saying: If we do not change, we will die like a dinosaur. If we change too much, we will become radicle, always so unstable and dangerous. So, balance, though balance itself can be subjective.
I myself have read up a story. That's this A person meets this B person. For 2 times in "introduction programme". But this A, for the 1st time meet B, already like B, and knoe that B is the right person for him. But, this A dun knoe why, is still a small little innocent young kid, and a jerk. Always like to tao people. So when B actually say hello to this A, this A somehow dun knoe why he did not respond. B misunderstand or nonchalant or whatever, and thus never talk to A, and they become strangers (though they knoe each other). But strangely, they have many things in common. This A realise he has been dao, but realise that he has never means to tao B. Becos, B is hahah, has some special height, so when B waves, A did not see and pay for it. As A himself has also some special height. Hah. So for the next 2 years, A has to pin for B. And soon news spread around. A understand that for this 2 years, B will realli want to study. Haha. So he did not do anything. He instead vow to be a better man for his 2004 New year resolution. He has indeed become (Judge from himself, but ... hah) better, even for a smidgen of it. As B is really so "unique", naturally B will have other admirers. A has even some friends from these admirers so has to feel exasperated. But life goes on. A keeps thing under wraps, so as to make sure that B's reputation will not be tarnished. However A is hum, so ... Haha. So, come the annual "Gathering for food". A still did not make the iniative. And he pays for it. Anyway, A thought B got a date. Hah. But B did not have anyway. Moreover A got very important things to do the next day. But A is till hum. He come to his realisation, knoe that hum will never bring him far. It is important to be slightly thick-skinned at times. Hai~~ for him. Finally due to some fate, A manage talk to B again. Haha. But, A still have not much progress with B, but can only say cool and steady wins the game.
Looking at "this story", I have learnt a lot. In fact, cool and steady wins the game, I learnt this but must not abuse. In fact, it should be, only when u realli want to drive the ship, then when the ship reach the harbour, it will go straight. In fact, I hope that that A will continue to be a better man, has his prospect great.
Great! Life goes on, let's hope I can make full use of it! Hah. Arigo Para Slempre, my friends, my blog.
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Happy New Year
2dae, very tired, but feel gd. Grateful to amanda, for letting me have a memorable New Year! Haha! And btw, help in those loading of the stuffs for tsunami victims. Going to help them again. Yesterday, it is still SciFi. Very normal lifestyle which I have stated earlier. Blog, realli sorrie, cannot tell u everything how i feel. Because, you have been exposed. But, anyway, share the joy with u ... My New Year Resolution: To be competence, humless, balance and enlightenment. Anyway, feel a little bit bad about saying slyvester is lousy. Shooting my mouth like this. Offensing a couple of girls. Well, even if I m open-minded, cannot force it on others. Realise this.
Bye! And gd nite. New Year! Arigo Para Slempre again, my blog!
Bye! And gd nite. New Year! Arigo Para Slempre again, my blog!
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