Growing up

Suddenly feel like writing a journal or blog again. Well, sometimes I realise we cannot just go according to feelings at times. Better look at a bigger picture and all will be in order. Unfortunately and maybe fortunately, we humans tend to look to feelings for a lot of things. This is good as it makes us human, but this may be bad if it is overdone. Emotions can be as tantamount to stress, it can be useful or it can kill you, give you a miserable time, or make you feel wanted and you will feel excited, adrenaline rushing and feels much more fulfilled.

However, what I have just keyed in have no significant ties which I want to express. Perhaps it is just what I thought at the instant, that I just input. In fact, I have devised a good reflection technique in my brain that can help me to source for creativity. That is "Thinking wild" or in Chinese, "Hu Si Ran Xiang". Every night, as usual, I will think wildly, anything I can think of, I let go of the restraints of thought, and then at an appropriate thought, then I stop that thought and scrutinise it. In those wild thoughts, I can see many and feel many for which I either have a blurred apprehension or I thought I have never seen before. Those thoughts or the people images, might be familiar one, like from television, but sometimes some thoughts or the image, I have never seen them or have any of that experience before. This is good of course, if you know how to balance wild dream. To me, creativity can be like a wild horse. Without a good proper way to handle them, creativity just goes to waste. I am not trying to make this like a paranormal thing, as this might be the reason that I have a lot of Deja-Vus, but in real, I managed to "change" and make myself better or ameliorate affairs, or even to an extent of solving problem. This form of reflection might even be a form of positive self-hynoptise. But the good thing of this, I believe is it stop you from venturing into many messy and further distractions and contour. I am not encouraging anyone to follow me, but I just feel like writing this down, and make them in words, so that our brains can shelve them like a library. In fact, language is one of the more physical ways of the "Order" in the necessary ways of obtaining brilliant creative and juicy ideas. Language has from the history, proven to be the important "Order" but of course it is a physical one. Whereas, what I have inputted, are mental aspects of the "Order" in grasping creativity, solving problems, making everything better. Of all these, this can also help me to calm down when my emotions had gone jitter, that is in scientific term, I am under the influence of hormones, and my brain feel hurt, and my whole body feels miserable. This painful feelings are the same as the nasty feelings of jealousy, hurt and any other negative thing in the world. To this, I should stop for the "Order of creativity", which I have profounded.

For the readers, if you do not comprehend what the heck I was talking about, just take it that lame William is crapping, bull-shitting and laming, just ignore them.

Anyway, as usual, cases and attending of messages everyday. Maybe since crime watch has revealed more than possible, maybe I can speak on certain cases I have attended that I feel will not compromise the integrity of Official Secret Act.

First, the case of an old man arguing with the Indian shop keepers. Over the stupid 10 cents which I will gladly contribute to stop the squabble, the old man is eventually arrested and brought back to DHQ. Actually both parties are at fault, for which she heap abuses and give snide and even racial remarks on the old man. Though I smell liqour on that old man's breath, I know he is not under the influence of alcohol. But sadly, old man is still old man, and he is so worked out that after even many warnings, we decided to make a painful decision of arresting him for public disorderly behaviour. The problem is he struggles and a drama ensues. Public come around us heaping abuses at us. Got one sickening youth even comment that four of us, the youth bullying one old man. Amazingly that old man though old, is super strong. We could have pinned him down, but just wanting to touch his hand has caused the misunderstanding by the public, imagine the consequences of a public outrage, if we were to apply the dojo techniques we have learnt. But eventually we still manage to detain him and brought him back. We had expected complaints, and just that evening, complains come in. But this time, luckily management support us as we have followed every single procedures.

I have learnt many things from this, that is in life, a stupid small thing can escalate into an unpleasant big hoo-ha. Secondly, "Protecters" have become very afraid of complaints and allegations, correct or wrong, it means a lot. All the "protecters" should know what I mean. Wrong means unlucky and still eat the shit, in crude terms. Sometimes, we only see the front and not the back. This is why Public sometimes give wrong judgement. Like me, I should be careful, to be a logical, well-reasoning and enlightened person, I must never give haste judgement as many things in life has become complicated, and more to meet the eye. This is why I can understand the case of "Americans beating up the Black" may not be related to racial discrimination as the media only take the video of the WHite officers using all empowered actions to apprehend, and along comes a certain degree of violence and aggression.But hey, we still have not look at the front, maybe the black might have contained a dangerous weapon and has attacked the officers. In life, I have passed a lot of judgement. And some wrong and not so so correct. But, as I grow, I must know, I must understand, and eventutally pass a good judgement... This is what I should do ... What I must do .....


I will only input one case, and I try to make it as discreet as possible like writing an essay, so as to avert unnecessary trouble. In life, there are so many things to comment. For which I shall stop, and I will continue on ....

May all be with us ...... Arigo Para Slempre!!!