Growing up

Suddenly feel like writing a journal or blog again. Well, sometimes I realise we cannot just go according to feelings at times. Better look at a bigger picture and all will be in order. Unfortunately and maybe fortunately, we humans tend to look to feelings for a lot of things. This is good as it makes us human, but this may be bad if it is overdone. Emotions can be as tantamount to stress, it can be useful or it can kill you, give you a miserable time, or make you feel wanted and you will feel excited, adrenaline rushing and feels much more fulfilled.

However, what I have just keyed in have no significant ties which I want to express. Perhaps it is just what I thought at the instant, that I just input. In fact, I have devised a good reflection technique in my brain that can help me to source for creativity. That is "Thinking wild" or in Chinese, "Hu Si Ran Xiang". Every night, as usual, I will think wildly, anything I can think of, I let go of the restraints of thought, and then at an appropriate thought, then I stop that thought and scrutinise it. In those wild thoughts, I can see many and feel many for which I either have a blurred apprehension or I thought I have never seen before. Those thoughts or the people images, might be familiar one, like from television, but sometimes some thoughts or the image, I have never seen them or have any of that experience before. This is good of course, if you know how to balance wild dream. To me, creativity can be like a wild horse. Without a good proper way to handle them, creativity just goes to waste. I am not trying to make this like a paranormal thing, as this might be the reason that I have a lot of Deja-Vus, but in real, I managed to "change" and make myself better or ameliorate affairs, or even to an extent of solving problem. This form of reflection might even be a form of positive self-hynoptise. But the good thing of this, I believe is it stop you from venturing into many messy and further distractions and contour. I am not encouraging anyone to follow me, but I just feel like writing this down, and make them in words, so that our brains can shelve them like a library. In fact, language is one of the more physical ways of the "Order" in the necessary ways of obtaining brilliant creative and juicy ideas. Language has from the history, proven to be the important "Order" but of course it is a physical one. Whereas, what I have inputted, are mental aspects of the "Order" in grasping creativity, solving problems, making everything better. Of all these, this can also help me to calm down when my emotions had gone jitter, that is in scientific term, I am under the influence of hormones, and my brain feel hurt, and my whole body feels miserable. This painful feelings are the same as the nasty feelings of jealousy, hurt and any other negative thing in the world. To this, I should stop for the "Order of creativity", which I have profounded.

For the readers, if you do not comprehend what the heck I was talking about, just take it that lame William is crapping, bull-shitting and laming, just ignore them.

Anyway, as usual, cases and attending of messages everyday. Maybe since crime watch has revealed more than possible, maybe I can speak on certain cases I have attended that I feel will not compromise the integrity of Official Secret Act.

First, the case of an old man arguing with the Indian shop keepers. Over the stupid 10 cents which I will gladly contribute to stop the squabble, the old man is eventually arrested and brought back to DHQ. Actually both parties are at fault, for which she heap abuses and give snide and even racial remarks on the old man. Though I smell liqour on that old man's breath, I know he is not under the influence of alcohol. But sadly, old man is still old man, and he is so worked out that after even many warnings, we decided to make a painful decision of arresting him for public disorderly behaviour. The problem is he struggles and a drama ensues. Public come around us heaping abuses at us. Got one sickening youth even comment that four of us, the youth bullying one old man. Amazingly that old man though old, is super strong. We could have pinned him down, but just wanting to touch his hand has caused the misunderstanding by the public, imagine the consequences of a public outrage, if we were to apply the dojo techniques we have learnt. But eventually we still manage to detain him and brought him back. We had expected complaints, and just that evening, complains come in. But this time, luckily management support us as we have followed every single procedures.

I have learnt many things from this, that is in life, a stupid small thing can escalate into an unpleasant big hoo-ha. Secondly, "Protecters" have become very afraid of complaints and allegations, correct or wrong, it means a lot. All the "protecters" should know what I mean. Wrong means unlucky and still eat the shit, in crude terms. Sometimes, we only see the front and not the back. This is why Public sometimes give wrong judgement. Like me, I should be careful, to be a logical, well-reasoning and enlightened person, I must never give haste judgement as many things in life has become complicated, and more to meet the eye. This is why I can understand the case of "Americans beating up the Black" may not be related to racial discrimination as the media only take the video of the WHite officers using all empowered actions to apprehend, and along comes a certain degree of violence and aggression.But hey, we still have not look at the front, maybe the black might have contained a dangerous weapon and has attacked the officers. In life, I have passed a lot of judgement. And some wrong and not so so correct. But, as I grow, I must know, I must understand, and eventutally pass a good judgement... This is what I should do ... What I must do .....


I will only input one case, and I try to make it as discreet as possible like writing an essay, so as to avert unnecessary trouble. In life, there are so many things to comment. For which I shall stop, and I will continue on ....

May all be with us ...... Arigo Para Slempre!!!

Life really goes on ...

Well, finally log into blog to write my thoughts. First, the updates of my life.

I have gone to NUS to listen to the talks and interact with the professors. Indeed there seems to be many programmes, special one like USP, and so on, for other degree except Life Science. I wanted to go life science badly. Frankly, I would want to go microbiologist, but NUS does not offer a major in this. This is why, I may have to take life science for the microbiologist. Strangely, NUS has a department of Microbiology, even an electron microscope, and 2 renounced professors of Microbiologist, but She does not offer microbiology. Hai~~. Nothing in life is that smooth. Just keep swimming.

Meanwhile at the NS, I continue to lead my life as a busy law enforcer. But, still, I have many operations outside the duty hours which I cannot revealed. NPCO is indeed the Jack of all trades, all departments we have scratched them. For me, I aspire to learn driving as fast as possible, so that I could be independent-mobile.

Now my inner thoughts, well, for the SCIFI thing, we are getting shaky. I do not know why. We should have faith, have a solid belief in what we do, only then can we do big. Hai~~

It seems that I have a lot to worry, and I do look stress. But I am not breaking down, as stress is a form of booster, but if transformed to panic, then that is a different thing.

Well, I still have another 1.5 years to go. Hopefully all is smooth and all in order. In life we gain we lose. For supposedly a mature an enlightened person, he should not be groaning, whincing and complaining all the time. I think I am guilty of this. Instead I should find ways to solve things and ameliorate affairs.

I will stop now. Tomorrow got another full ops. May all be with me. ...

Changing of NYJC name

Recently, there is a big uproar over the changing of my alma mater, NYJC. Newspaper has featured, in the forum by the former NYJCians who have become professors. There is a big hoo-ha in the school, as majority of the people do not want to change name. As to some other people who are pro-changing of name will say, as to names are names, and NYJC spirit will never die. But frankly speaking, this is horribly wrong. Do we anyhow change our names in our lives without any special reason? Names are of course very important, as they hold very special significance. Just like the Chinese, we do not anyhow change surname too.

Hai~~ It is not a matter of how the pro-changer say as to that NYJC is just a name. In fact, NY has become a household name. Though it is not as prestigious as the top notch JC, NYJC is still famous, at least to many, to all former NYJCians. Just like Anderson, Anderson Sec is not affiliated to Anderson JC but they still have same name, right. This tells us that affiliation is definitely not related all to name. Another will be Catholic JC and Catholic High. Just like NYJC and Nanyang Girl. We are not affiliated, right. Why don't Cheung Chen change their name to NY Sec instead, right? This is really lame.

Economically and common sensically, changing of name is so lame, and very cumbersome. How juch effort is needed to change the name? How much is needed to change the infrastructure? It is not as if NYJC owe CC, that we go to CC. It is ironically the other way round, CC coming to NYJC. In fact, CC should follow NYJC and not the other way round. This is very lame. Such a simple thing can turn into complicated things. For years, we have survived and all are in order. CC and NY remain. Don't know why suddenly change the name, for a sudden reason.

Name sadly speaking is not just names. They are HOLY. Yes, the pro-changer say changing of name does not mean NY spirit will cease. But hey, indeed NYJC spirit will cease. About the good luck in CC, it is bull shit. I am one who also believe in Feng Shui. That is NYJC itself is also a good name, or else the Chinese Businessman, the pioneers will never have introduce this name in the first place.

NYJC, the spririt. When the name change, people will not say CC spirit, but still langer on NY spirit. By Occam Razor, we should keep things as it is. It is very strange for humans, as they like to do things complicated. No wonder, there is chaos and confusion and war in the world. All these are caused by humans who proclaimed they are intelligent, they and we are, but intelligent people always do stupid things at times.

And also, the past people will also be alienated. They will still remember their NY spirit. To many people, they will sign. They will forget the presenf CC JC and relish their memory of the past NYJC. I am not exaggerating, so what if the management heck care, and change. Haha, I will be laughing, waiting to see my uncanny prophecy come true.

I am not sardonic and sacarstic. But, I am not into it. Why now, and suddenly? At least if PAP do something that individuals do not like, they make sure they show people it is for our own good. Sometimes it is true, though sometimes it is not. But, for this CC and NYJC changing of name, I do not see any good at all, to the students, to the management, to the alma mater students, and many more. People will only be confused. I don't know. Management still hold the decision, and like a wise emperor, hopefully, they listen and consider. No doubt, popular decision may not be always right, but sometimes, for certain circumstances like this, popular decision is CORRECT, just like during election ...