Always look on the bright side of life ... tuttutututututu

Always look on the bright side of life, and most things will be fine. Well, I have served the people for around 1 month already. To be frank, I am really exposed to the real Singapore. I mean though I am a NS, but I work like a regular. Or even harder than some. Of course, when answering to the superior, the regulars will have to answer more.

Nonetheless, I am also quite fearful of what I am inputting might affect the OSA which I swore for the rest of my life. This is why I am limiting myself for writing out most of the cases I have attended.

But, sometimes being a frontline people, that faces the public, we have tremendous pressure when things happen. When you do things harder, the public will complain against you for being too harsh without discern effort. When you try not to do things the hard way, the public will still complain you for being slack. It seems I have gone back into a contradictory cycle, that is whatever I do, it seems that I am always wrong. This is life. Like what my Sir said to me, whatever you do, as long as you do it with a conscience, and all your actions are justifiable, then you do not fear and do what you deem. Sometimes public only see the back side and not the front, thus they will never know and heap abuses to you.

This made me notice that not only the police but many things have changed from the past. Though I am a newcomer and seem not to be in a position to comment, I have the disgression to see things. Last time, many civil servants command respect, but now it seems all of us have become a slave instead of servants. The respect we gain, which I like to joke from the symbol I have created from my 5 fingers, seems to turn into the 3rd finger now sticking out of people's hands. I am not commenting anything about the management or what, and I am NS and I don't even bother about the whole system and just want to serve the 2 years to repay the country. But most of the time, the regulars will be the one to suffer. Unlike the big shots, normally the older people and the lower education qualification face many injustice.

Alas, I do not even know about the whole things of SciFi. Am I destined to succeed, or I will become a reject. Everyone holds the destiny in their hands. I have grown to be more mature, as I realise I am more mature than what I think of myself. When I look at some of the childlish actions of the regulars though they are at least 5 years older than me, I shake my head and come to a sudden realisation that I am quite mature. For the professionalism, well I am still learning. Just keep swimming.

In fact for the last 18 years, I am glad to meet many people, friends whom I learnt from. In my secondary school, I managed to enter the best class, with high academics, many foreigners and many good characteristics and also many high-flyers. That class I know many of us will become very successful in life. For my primary school, I get surprise and sadness too.

It seems people change but sometimes they change too fast, or they change the wrong way. Hai~~~ But, anyway I hope for the best for all I have met. Secondary school is my turning point, JC is my differentiation, NS will be my gradient and uni will be differentiation, and in life the conclusion and reusing what I learnt, Integration in my life. A subtle Mathematician will not understand what I meant.

For the stupid things I have written in my blog, I decide not to delete them, for the sake of reminiscence and reflection that I will never be like this in the future. So forgive me, for those people implicated into the mess of words I have created.

A mere reflection, ....., May the force be with me ..... (I still have not watch due to overwhelming crowds Damn .....)

Bye Blog, as thou shall treat you as my friend, though a non-living but with the intricate spirits ...

Btw, add 3 new sections:

Thou shall endure smoking (From my friends), but will never purchase, trade or use or consume the cigarettes or cigars no matter what happens ... Thou will try to elude the smoke whenever possible to prevent myself from becoming a hardcore smoker ...

Thou shall belittle drugs, condemn any form of illegal and harmful drugs which was abused by any people, and will never purchase, trade or consume any forms of illegal and detrimental drugs ....

Thou shall only allow a small portion of alcohol, to be drank, at an acceptable level where thou will not lose my conscience and humane and will not pose any dangers to me and others .... Purchase of alcohol beverages thou shall comply legally ...

Thou can gamble but never to an extent of using my surplus or savings, never to reach more than 5 % of my earnings and savings, and never to burrow any single cents for gambling ...

(My personal that is subjective: I will never buy 4D or Toto or Soccer bets or something like this sorts including the lottery tiackets for myself. For others, It will be flexible. This will be consider gamblings. For stock markets, it will be my disgression but to ensure that I will not invest blindly and indiscriminately and ensuring my surplus is ensured)

Gambling to me means allowing stakes especially of monetary values to be used as ante for gaming, that includes casino games to lottery. Shares will be excluded from this term, but is carefully monitored.

[Writing this "law" for myself will ensure that I can behave myself and not let myself loose. Of course, I cannot possibly punish myself, but to treat myself as robots and to follow this "programs". Plus the casino is coming and I am exposing to a lot of craps, thus I have to be careful, face it correctly and tactfully while I cannot elude the craps in my life ...]