The ChOiCe ...

On 13th May 2006, I have gone to the Grand Hyatt Hotel Singapore for a high tea talk hosted by NTU School of Biological Science. I am still contemplating and have not accepted fully yet online ....

But I have decided that I will enter this "prestigious" course nonetheless.

I do realise I have accompany, an ODAC friend of mine who has already accepted the choice of the double degree course.

Uncertainty still dwells inside me, but at least it is still a decision I have made. When I was in Primary 6, I do not even have the priviledge of making a clear choice. I was too blurred, too immature and too obscured in my cloudy brain to choose carefully and correctly. And to make a clear cut choice for my school. I had not even input the thought of the choice that will affect the next 4 years of my life.

Choices are meant to create fate, though fate will also influence choices.

I have made many choices in my life and of course fews are a matter of life and death according to my NPCO (Policeman) experience. There is always this instances that choices will become gambles. It is sometimes in the hope of achieving a desirable outcome and result that we made a choice.

No matter what types of choices we made, it will always be a gamble. SOmetimes, even a gamble of both positive outcomes but as to which one is better than the other. The gamble can even be meaningless if both choices seem to be on equal footings.

The word "gamble" might be a little bit too extreme. But likewise, in the concept of winning and losing, the investments and to increase the chance of winning, we always "look out" for a "better gmable". We calaculate and balance the pros and cons, the benefits and the amount of pain prior to the sacrifice, the memory portion, the similar experiences to present choices we obtain and own in our personal history ... All in our thoughts, in our brains ... Then only we can make the most wise decision, a wise choice.

Of course choices can be further explained in different catergories of choices. IN answering academics, it is of course a different way of making choices. Some of these choices can be reversible as in changing the choice of answers as in practices and exams before sumbitting. Or in some scenarios, doing wrong steps can in fact help you gain useful experiences and insights even though there is a feeling of the pain of losing going on.

The "choices" that I chiefly mean in my present blog are choices and decisions that are going to affect my life, a big one, choices that subject to my circumstances. There may be no wrong or correct, but there is no turning back. It is just in the hope that there are no poignancy involved in future aspects. And rather it is very hard to point out the negatives or the positives, and therefore a gamble ... When both different choices seem to be the one you want, and you know you can only have one, then you will have to sacrifice the other ...

The topic of choices can be a book long and endless pages flowing on in the explanation and defining of choices, or simply the philosophy of choices. Therefore I will discontinue the blabbering of choices for now ...

Just as my final decision on my religion, I hope I can become a firm and wise decision-maker, a good and great leader and a sagacious and erudite MAn who has more than luck to make good choices ... May answer to alternatives always be with me .... !!!

[I have touched on the topics of Choices before, and it seems history will always repeat itself - I have found myself making decisions that are going to affect my life tremendously. Making choices will always be with us, no matter in a free or conservative society. It is just that free society will have allowed us to make tons of more choices than usual. I have also noted before in my blog that having too much choices may make a person confused and it takes plenty of will and decision-making to make a painful choice out of many and a gamble that you hope you will not regret ...]