Tuesday, April 11, 2006

My life continues ... And the review of the faith

Well, it has been a long long time since I have blogged. To be frank, I am very busy and lack the diligence to input blog when I am lethargic and tired. I have finished a number of books that are useful, and also, I still have many anime to watch.

Life has been quite normal. I have met up with my old friends. And this friend of mine , same age as me, and married with a 3 month old son. I cannot believe it. Many of my friends, same age as me, are marrying yet I am not only a single, but what my colleagues like to call me Virgin Boy. I do not even have a girlfriend. LoL.

Anyway, all these are normal and I do not want to subject myself to peer and kins pressure to get a relationship (Cause I feel that is stupid). I have read up on Buddhist scripture here and then. It seems I still cannot get the word "She" (Or Female desire in Chinese) out of my mind. "She" can in fact be viewed as very negative like lust. For now, I cannot get the "She" outof me totally, maybe due to my hormones and my environment. Nonetheless, although I am not a gentlemen, I am a Man, that abide by codes of principle.

Or worse with nowadays liberty, desire can be a little bit awry, like homosexuality or worse unnatural sexual relationships with different species. Of course the awry desire is very yucky and I cannot comprehend all these feelings of people who somehow think on the other line.

There is always a line, sometimes invisible, known as limits. Whatever we do, we cannot step over this line, or else, bad things will happen. Not only for relationships, but for all the things in the world, in principle, there is always this line, and you will have to choose whether you want to cross over the line and face the consequences.

Maybe it is my hormones ... But the fact that I believe that Frontal lobe can control cerebellum, neurones and nerves over hormones ... Logic over blind emotions ... Pragmatism and Practicality over blind faith ...

I have read up both Buddhist scriptures and the New and Old Testaments (The summarised Bible) in one day. This makes me think there is something to be compared between the two religion. Although there is some sensitivity, the line of "Limits" thy will remember.

I realised it seems that the God from the starting age of Adam to the Israelis have always been supporting war while favouring a group of people, especially the descendants of Abraham, Solomon, Daniel and so on to Jeus Christ. What I do not like is the fact that God actually support war. Insteadof changing the people by compassion, He actually sent floods, plague and disaster to "kill off", eliminate and eradicate the so called bad people, or in even in some case, simply people that do not believe in him, or those that worship idols as a form of other beliefs. Example will be that it seems Noah Of Ark and his family are the only good guys around, and the rest of the people at that time are all scums that have to be destroyed by Gods. This is a little bit strange for even if a person is good and kind-hearted but does not believe in God orNoah, then he/she will then be destroyed by floods. There are even some cases when God actually claim that he only "talk through" some people because He trust them more than the others. And He will want all the people in the world to listen to those people He talk through. Of course, this will cause a lot of misunderstandings as the thought of abuse of power will always come into the minds of the others and we cannot blame the people for thinking this way as there are enough examples in the world to prove. I hate the fact that War, no matter what strange correct wars they are, seem to be right and correct to Almighty God. And he always show favourism to a couple of people whom He want to talk through. What does this show, there are even politics in the eye of God?

Imagine if Ghandi were to follow this concept and to wage the so called "right" war of independence of India against the British empire, what will have happen?

Maybe there is God in the world. But I think God does many things most of the time for the good of Mankind, even sometimes the medicine are very bitter. But still, it is improper to say that God totally do not make mistake. A saying is God is actually human, but He cando things that the humans cannot do...

I am not saying that Buddhism is perfect. Buddhism is in fact not perfect and Buddha himself is not a God but I like its logic and pragmatism. Of course Kharma can somtimes be too fair that people cannot accept. The good thing about Buddhist is that they will be given chance if they saw the "light" and understand the "Tao"and simply gaining enlightenment. But at least compassion will be given to people. Logical pragmatic views, stories and philosophy will be given to people who have all the negative thoughts, while giving punishments to the people who have done wrong through Kharma. To rehabilitate or to re-educate rather than just eliminate ...

I understand this comparison of mine will trigger off some displeasure among the Christians. I am not extolling whatever religions are good, but about what I feel that leads me to some thinking about which belief and faith I have chosen. Some people choose to believe without logic and thinking. Even blind faiths have objectives.

I am not a staunch supporter of Christianity, but I am not anti-Christian. Neither am I object fully to this great religion. Some of the things like the commandments I do agree upon as the basis of humans and certain morality. Like the invisible line, there is a limit in all of our heart ....

Hmm ... To strike a balance and as a libra, it is not easy ....

(Anyway, the most recent Saturday, Qing Ming Festival ... I went to Pulau Ubin to ""visit"" my Grandfather. My ancestors all reside at Pulau Ubin since long time ago. Only recently do there come to SIngapore to settle down ... As usual, I have many fun at Pulau Ubin ... The food at Changi Village is Glorious ... Hahah ... Long words, short words ... Pardon ...)

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