2 weeks fly by, and I have gone through a lot of enriching courses. The details however are under OSA, but I find myself learning a lot of things and trying many stuffs outsiders or the public will never have the chance to try.
I get to walk the tunnels of SMRT and SBST. Get to see the MRT in a different light. The pilot cocksit and so on. Get to be a pioneer, get to be a SOC member though some discrimination might occur. Get to learn the secrets of IED, many confidential intelligence none other than from ISD. Of course, the lessons of these I cannot revealed.
To many SOC people, they are exceptionally fit and they are really proud of it, and many people including the PMU (Or Police MRT unit) marvel at their fitness and the discipline. PMU is a little bit different by nature because we work by shifts, we are the first "specialist" unit to be engaged with the public. We do not carry heavy guns like MP5 or HK SMG(Sub-machine gun). And the worst difference is our pt which is incomparable to the troopers and the other units of SOC.
This is why somehow our unit is discriminated much to the dismay of my CO. CO has actually notified the Head Ops, and tell us that this type of situation can be expected as there are people who do not understand new concepts or the unknown factor. Likewise, this type of thoughts can be portrayed in the World Discrimination. People are simply too fearful and discriminate. Like the fictionous yet possible X-men, people simply refer to them as freaks. Though our unit are not freaks, but somehow the concept of discrimination is very telling. Our berets are also different from the others, but like always, we will say, WHAT TO DO?
The problem of the SOC camp is that it is super far away from my house and for the next 1.5 years, I have to travel this far to and fro everyday. I do not know how can I make it, but I have to. Also, I travel in the very early morning and come home late in this 3 weeks of courses. And for the operational time, especially the morning shift, I do not know whether I can reach the base in time. I do not want to be late and be entitled the AWOL. But what to do? Just keep swimming...
I have realised many things and one of them is very telling today. For I have taken my New Scientist Magazine to read. Well, people simply said that this is a very typical A-level student sacarstically. And worst still, people give snide comments like I am a nerd. I am a little bit confused, for a good virtue like hardworking may seem erroneous in the eye of the law enforcers, and much ado, the NS men. I understand that there is always a time for everything, and certain situations might not work to certain positive favours. Nonetheless, I am extremely disappointed with these comments. Sacarsm might not be the straw to be used. Luckily I am a Man, well, this is why I cannot swallow all the insults in the world. But for a young girl, this is very hurting.
But I still continue my way, as long as it does not hurt others. Always I disapprove many other people's action and their actions are really negative. But fearing for my status and other people's dislikenment, I will restrain myself. And simply pray for an authortarian figure to come out and punish us altogether(Because many a times we are together and united in a unit), so that we will not be a recidivist. And anyway, I do not backstab or gossip or purposefully tell the authortarian figures. Simply I keep praying the big figure will find out the truth everyday. And from last time until now, my prayers have always been true.
I do not know whether what I do are correct or not, but I do understand the concept of "obit", or doing the right thing at the right place at the right time. I do balance out the consequences and what other people's comments. As Chinese has a saying, "Ren Yan Ke Wei". (People's comments are fearful). Anyway, I believe as long as I follow my Balance principle, and all will be fine.
Anyway, the Lunar Ghost festival has started. Haha, but I am sadden to see the tradition has somehow deteriorated. Maybe the younger generation is the fault, and maybe time really has changed. But I believed it is my fate that I am willing to follow the tradition and pass it on, as long as they will never become obsolete. Faith in most of the time are not obsolete ot become the latter even for many many years. Heard that this is the time when tracom has more "problems" than usual. Hahah... Lucky for me, but never to talk nonsense in the public. Especially now ...
P.S: Btw, Bing Dun has joined me for the PMU. So "lucky", keep meeting people from the same background(but may not have same ideological) in any unit I am stucked with. Last time Yong Chuen, now BD. Haha... Anyway, a coincidence too, keep meeting people with same surname, Peh. I am really "lucky" man ...
