Grown to be great

3 weeks already, and finally do I really find a nice time inputting my blog. These 3 weeks of mine are very happening. With major events in my life like POP and my postings to the division.

The 3 weeks, I have taken my law exams which I have passed. I have also discussed many with Adam and Pra, about the SciFi courses we have started.

Just 3 days ago, it is my POP , that is I am going to march out on April 7, and officially get my ranks and warrant cards.

It is a wonder that I am just inputting to keep things short, because it may be due to the fact that I have accepted things as they come.

I was posted to SSO, Station Security Officer in Jurong division. Yeah, it sounds like a good name, yet it is just sentry, the post which everyone does not want. It is slack but also, an undesirable slack. But, since things have come to this, and I will have to accept my fate. I have wanted to join frontline NPCO officers, for which the benefits are many including a free driving license using your NS time. I am also a little regretful not choosing Coast Guard as my choice. I was dissuaded by my father who insisted that it is also a very slack job with no good prospect.
I cannot blame anyone for the psychometric test I screw up. For my logic test, I jumble up the MCQ. I believe the manpower department may have stare at my result in disbelief as to I am going to be the lowest scorer in the pattern via logic test. I have smelled something fishy while doing the logic test as the question paper seems not to tally with the question booklet. But again, it is because of my nonchalant attitude and maybe even a sip of cowardice that cause me dearly. I should have stopped immediately and raise this promptly to the conductor. Hahaa..... Hai~~~ Well, I was posted to SSO, and I expected it. For many a time, I have not confirmed my suspicions and not doing anything to allay them. For this, I am not going to be happy-go-lucky anymore. I must kill my suspicions before they become true and poison me permanently.

Yesterday, I meet again with Adam in the morning for the SciFi courses we are going to conduct in the tution centre at 12.30pm. Pra cannot make it due to his interview. The lesson is quite smooth, though I worry for the 4 students as they know nothing at all although they are already in school for 4 months. But it is still my responsibility to help them. The details of the plan and courses have to be concealed. An many other of my feelings I cannot reveal as they are not appropriate at this time if you know what I mean.

For me, scholarship is like a far away bird, this is why I must think of other alternatives to pay for my expenses for the next six years. We thought about great dreams and lofty visions we want to achieve during meetings, and I realise that I have been too skeptical at times, that sometimes I kill off the great vision. How can I achieve great things, when I throw off the sketches and refuse to believe in it? Faith is extremely important, and impossible is just an excuse. I must ensure I do the sketches, believe in it, improve it and blueprint it before turning it into a book via reality. I always tell myself I am a leader but I can only become adviser and definitely not an emperor. This statement still stands as I choose my path. But this does not mean that I am a sissy and non-independent. I just want to find same people to work together and achieve good and great things in life. Dream big, do big. I have already found them. Now it is up to my faith to keep it going. A dream will die off before going into reality if there is not personal commitment.

I have also thought that I am not borned to be a great person. And I come to a sudden realisation this is horribly wrong. Yes, great people can be borned yet they can also be matured. I cannot yet think of a good life example, but... A big but. I belong to the category of a person grown to be great. An emperor or even in today's context, some people look great, and are really great just after they are borned. But I am grown to be great. I have to be matured and nurtured. I refuse to use the word "train" as training seems to be shaping and moulding. There is no idiosyncrasies. Yes, I am a person grown to be great. And, I should stop saying that I am slower than others, although I realise that it is a fact judging by the patterns I have observed for my life. But hey, I will have to work doubly hard or even triply, to catch up with others. I have matured late, but that does not mean that other things I have to be later than others. I do not want to be poignant anymore. I want to be fulfilled.

I am meant to do good and great things and also I may not be or be acknowledged as a genius by others, but I viewed myself as a "growing" and "hardworking" genius. That means I may not be a genuis when I was borned (as the genius can accelerate their learning technique that fast), but I may take a longer time and gain experience fast. It is time that I evolved myself to a faster genius, "Genius is 1% knowledge and 99% imagination" by Albert Elinstein. The genius concept , I got it from Naruto, a comic for which I have fell in love.

The reason I keep emphasising on good and great is that Lex Luthor, superman's enemy, said that he wanted to do great things, not good things. To me, even when you do great things but bad one, it is still going to be condemn by posterity. Thus, Good and Great must come together.

Wow, though I want to be sweet and short, but hey I have input many. Haha, I should be short and sweet sometimes, as there is a time for everything. I must do the right thing at the right time with luck. Hahaha ...... Thou shall be Good and Great.

Ameigo Para Slempre, my blog !!!

P.S: To YC, Why do you keep insisting I have a date with a girl? Hahaha ... It is SciFi lah. Because I want to play a trick on you, I act sneaky and as though I really have a date. And also, it was you who give me the idea to play this trick, as I ganna sentry on Sunday. The person I call is my friend not a girl. Seems that my acting is good, but do not be offended. I know as a friend, I should not anyhow keep secrets. Hahah, but this is the secret.....