Finally, the 2 weeks stay-in at tracom SSO course is over. I am not so happy in SSO though I have to resign to my fate. First of all, my squad which consists of Juliet and Golf division are full of Malays. I am not a racist, so it is still a never mind. But then around 85% of the people smoke. I have never tolerated smoking and neither will I in the future. I can still endure if not for the fact that those smokers smoke in the bunk and choke me. I can never tell them face to face not to do that in the bunk, as so many people are smokers. And also, my rank is corporal. And unfortunately for me, very few people are corporal in my J and G squad. Thus, there is still a little resentment in terms of rank. I call them the "rankists".
Despite all of these shits I have tolerated, I am glad that the 2 weeks courses are gone. I elude all those "fogs" by moving to another bunk where all my NPCO friends are staying. Though there are smokers there, at least those people smoke their lives away in the toilet. The Blk 25 of Delta company is really, frankly speaking, cannot make it. In retrospect, looking back at my 3 mths BMT, my delta blk 24 is more comfortable and humane. The toilets are better and I do not need to tolerate the smoke in the bunk. The toilets choke and smell in Blk 25. Even the facilities suck, with no lock for each cubicles and the tap spoil or release very little water. In fact, I suspect that the reason why the toilet chokes and floods are due to those smokers. They did not dispose their cigarettes well, and throw the remaining cigarettes onto the floor. When the floor is filled with water, the cigarettes then go into the drain. Accumulation of cigarettes causes the choking.
But all in all, all still bodes well. The bunk mates frankly speaking are quite ok, though many of them come from ITE or did not have diploma or A-level. If not for the smoke, perhaps I will have feel more better.
For the 2 weeks, many people have been "psychoing" us or encouraging us or cajoling us that SSO via sentry is a very important post. Indeed, it is the 1st line of defence. But yet, people still taunt and not respect the sentry as well as the others like the NPCO. NPCO also have free driving license to which I am deeply concerned and envied. Whincing and complaints, but I still have to serve my NS. I will treat this as just repayment to my country.
I am going to my division on the coming Monday. Realise Sentry can be quite dangerous as many sentry have been murdered for the firearms or for the free intrusion of the compounds. And also, since Sep 11, sentry has also been deployed more intensively. Sentry are taught how to deal with unknown objects lying around. These objects might be IED or improvised explosive devices. Even the bomb sniffing machine and x-ray machine has been introduced to us. We even go to checkpoint and ISD for heritage. Nevertheless, we even got a cert to show us that we have completed the SSO courses. This cert is supossedly useful if we want to apply for the security jobs.
For the coming weeks, things might be boring and stiff. But nonetheless, I am going to do well, even in sentry. Mistakes must be avoided, and I am going to be competent. I might as well do my job well, and continue to get my rank and pay.
For the SciFi, there might be some changes. I might not be present on one saturday due to the fact that I am going to do shift works. Many screw-ups, to which I believe Pra and Adam and I have learnt hard. THis is why I am going to structurise the whole things and make things organised. It is time I should use my managing and leadership skills. Hope all endears well ...
Arigo Para Slempre!!! once again. My blog. And may goodness be upon me!!!
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Monday, April 11, 2005
Grown to be great
3 weeks already, and finally do I really find a nice time inputting my blog. These 3 weeks of mine are very happening. With major events in my life like POP and my postings to the division.
The 3 weeks, I have taken my law exams which I have passed. I have also discussed many with Adam and Pra, about the SciFi courses we have started.
Just 3 days ago, it is my POP , that is I am going to march out on April 7, and officially get my ranks and warrant cards.
It is a wonder that I am just inputting to keep things short, because it may be due to the fact that I have accepted things as they come.
I was posted to SSO, Station Security Officer in Jurong division. Yeah, it sounds like a good name, yet it is just sentry, the post which everyone does not want. It is slack but also, an undesirable slack. But, since things have come to this, and I will have to accept my fate. I have wanted to join frontline NPCO officers, for which the benefits are many including a free driving license using your NS time. I am also a little regretful not choosing Coast Guard as my choice. I was dissuaded by my father who insisted that it is also a very slack job with no good prospect.
I cannot blame anyone for the psychometric test I screw up. For my logic test, I jumble up the MCQ. I believe the manpower department may have stare at my result in disbelief as to I am going to be the lowest scorer in the pattern via logic test. I have smelled something fishy while doing the logic test as the question paper seems not to tally with the question booklet. But again, it is because of my nonchalant attitude and maybe even a sip of cowardice that cause me dearly. I should have stopped immediately and raise this promptly to the conductor. Hahaa..... Hai~~~ Well, I was posted to SSO, and I expected it. For many a time, I have not confirmed my suspicions and not doing anything to allay them. For this, I am not going to be happy-go-lucky anymore. I must kill my suspicions before they become true and poison me permanently.
Yesterday, I meet again with Adam in the morning for the SciFi courses we are going to conduct in the tution centre at 12.30pm. Pra cannot make it due to his interview. The lesson is quite smooth, though I worry for the 4 students as they know nothing at all although they are already in school for 4 months. But it is still my responsibility to help them. The details of the plan and courses have to be concealed. An many other of my feelings I cannot reveal as they are not appropriate at this time if you know what I mean.
For me, scholarship is like a far away bird, this is why I must think of other alternatives to pay for my expenses for the next six years. We thought about great dreams and lofty visions we want to achieve during meetings, and I realise that I have been too skeptical at times, that sometimes I kill off the great vision. How can I achieve great things, when I throw off the sketches and refuse to believe in it? Faith is extremely important, and impossible is just an excuse. I must ensure I do the sketches, believe in it, improve it and blueprint it before turning it into a book via reality. I always tell myself I am a leader but I can only become adviser and definitely not an emperor. This statement still stands as I choose my path. But this does not mean that I am a sissy and non-independent. I just want to find same people to work together and achieve good and great things in life. Dream big, do big. I have already found them. Now it is up to my faith to keep it going. A dream will die off before going into reality if there is not personal commitment.
I have also thought that I am not borned to be a great person. And I come to a sudden realisation this is horribly wrong. Yes, great people can be borned yet they can also be matured. I cannot yet think of a good life example, but... A big but. I belong to the category of a person grown to be great. An emperor or even in today's context, some people look great, and are really great just after they are borned. But I am grown to be great. I have to be matured and nurtured. I refuse to use the word "train" as training seems to be shaping and moulding. There is no idiosyncrasies. Yes, I am a person grown to be great. And, I should stop saying that I am slower than others, although I realise that it is a fact judging by the patterns I have observed for my life. But hey, I will have to work doubly hard or even triply, to catch up with others. I have matured late, but that does not mean that other things I have to be later than others. I do not want to be poignant anymore. I want to be fulfilled.
I am meant to do good and great things and also I may not be or be acknowledged as a genius by others, but I viewed myself as a "growing" and "hardworking" genius. That means I may not be a genuis when I was borned (as the genius can accelerate their learning technique that fast), but I may take a longer time and gain experience fast. It is time that I evolved myself to a faster genius, "Genius is 1% knowledge and 99% imagination" by Albert Elinstein. The genius concept , I got it from Naruto, a comic for which I have fell in love.
The reason I keep emphasising on good and great is that Lex Luthor, superman's enemy, said that he wanted to do great things, not good things. To me, even when you do great things but bad one, it is still going to be condemn by posterity. Thus, Good and Great must come together.
Wow, though I want to be sweet and short, but hey I have input many. Haha, I should be short and sweet sometimes, as there is a time for everything. I must do the right thing at the right time with luck. Hahaha ...... Thou shall be Good and Great.
Ameigo Para Slempre, my blog !!!
P.S: To YC, Why do you keep insisting I have a date with a girl? Hahaha ... It is SciFi lah. Because I want to play a trick on you, I act sneaky and as though I really have a date. And also, it was you who give me the idea to play this trick, as I ganna sentry on Sunday. The person I call is my friend not a girl. Seems that my acting is good, but do not be offended. I know as a friend, I should not anyhow keep secrets. Hahah, but this is the secret.....
The 3 weeks, I have taken my law exams which I have passed. I have also discussed many with Adam and Pra, about the SciFi courses we have started.
Just 3 days ago, it is my POP , that is I am going to march out on April 7, and officially get my ranks and warrant cards.
It is a wonder that I am just inputting to keep things short, because it may be due to the fact that I have accepted things as they come.
I was posted to SSO, Station Security Officer in Jurong division. Yeah, it sounds like a good name, yet it is just sentry, the post which everyone does not want. It is slack but also, an undesirable slack. But, since things have come to this, and I will have to accept my fate. I have wanted to join frontline NPCO officers, for which the benefits are many including a free driving license using your NS time. I am also a little regretful not choosing Coast Guard as my choice. I was dissuaded by my father who insisted that it is also a very slack job with no good prospect.
I cannot blame anyone for the psychometric test I screw up. For my logic test, I jumble up the MCQ. I believe the manpower department may have stare at my result in disbelief as to I am going to be the lowest scorer in the pattern via logic test. I have smelled something fishy while doing the logic test as the question paper seems not to tally with the question booklet. But again, it is because of my nonchalant attitude and maybe even a sip of cowardice that cause me dearly. I should have stopped immediately and raise this promptly to the conductor. Hahaa..... Hai~~~ Well, I was posted to SSO, and I expected it. For many a time, I have not confirmed my suspicions and not doing anything to allay them. For this, I am not going to be happy-go-lucky anymore. I must kill my suspicions before they become true and poison me permanently.
Yesterday, I meet again with Adam in the morning for the SciFi courses we are going to conduct in the tution centre at 12.30pm. Pra cannot make it due to his interview. The lesson is quite smooth, though I worry for the 4 students as they know nothing at all although they are already in school for 4 months. But it is still my responsibility to help them. The details of the plan and courses have to be concealed. An many other of my feelings I cannot reveal as they are not appropriate at this time if you know what I mean.
For me, scholarship is like a far away bird, this is why I must think of other alternatives to pay for my expenses for the next six years. We thought about great dreams and lofty visions we want to achieve during meetings, and I realise that I have been too skeptical at times, that sometimes I kill off the great vision. How can I achieve great things, when I throw off the sketches and refuse to believe in it? Faith is extremely important, and impossible is just an excuse. I must ensure I do the sketches, believe in it, improve it and blueprint it before turning it into a book via reality. I always tell myself I am a leader but I can only become adviser and definitely not an emperor. This statement still stands as I choose my path. But this does not mean that I am a sissy and non-independent. I just want to find same people to work together and achieve good and great things in life. Dream big, do big. I have already found them. Now it is up to my faith to keep it going. A dream will die off before going into reality if there is not personal commitment.
I have also thought that I am not borned to be a great person. And I come to a sudden realisation this is horribly wrong. Yes, great people can be borned yet they can also be matured. I cannot yet think of a good life example, but... A big but. I belong to the category of a person grown to be great. An emperor or even in today's context, some people look great, and are really great just after they are borned. But I am grown to be great. I have to be matured and nurtured. I refuse to use the word "train" as training seems to be shaping and moulding. There is no idiosyncrasies. Yes, I am a person grown to be great. And, I should stop saying that I am slower than others, although I realise that it is a fact judging by the patterns I have observed for my life. But hey, I will have to work doubly hard or even triply, to catch up with others. I have matured late, but that does not mean that other things I have to be later than others. I do not want to be poignant anymore. I want to be fulfilled.
I am meant to do good and great things and also I may not be or be acknowledged as a genius by others, but I viewed myself as a "growing" and "hardworking" genius. That means I may not be a genuis when I was borned (as the genius can accelerate their learning technique that fast), but I may take a longer time and gain experience fast. It is time that I evolved myself to a faster genius, "Genius is 1% knowledge and 99% imagination" by Albert Elinstein. The genius concept , I got it from Naruto, a comic for which I have fell in love.
The reason I keep emphasising on good and great is that Lex Luthor, superman's enemy, said that he wanted to do great things, not good things. To me, even when you do great things but bad one, it is still going to be condemn by posterity. Thus, Good and Great must come together.
Wow, though I want to be sweet and short, but hey I have input many. Haha, I should be short and sweet sometimes, as there is a time for everything. I must do the right thing at the right time with luck. Hahaha ...... Thou shall be Good and Great.
Ameigo Para Slempre, my blog !!!
P.S: To YC, Why do you keep insisting I have a date with a girl? Hahaha ... It is SciFi lah. Because I want to play a trick on you, I act sneaky and as though I really have a date. And also, it was you who give me the idea to play this trick, as I ganna sentry on Sunday. The person I call is my friend not a girl. Seems that my acting is good, but do not be offended. I know as a friend, I should not anyhow keep secrets. Hahah, but this is the secret.....
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