Sunday, May 17, 2009

Thought-provoking after watching Angels and Demon

Today, I have just watched Angels and Demon, thankfully not alone, but with my sister. I have always thought that I am "lonely", but I have so many good friends (Not so good ones also inculding homosexuals) and a goody enough family with me. From now on, I should promise myself, no more distractions, accomplish the best and be thankful and grateful of what I have and achieved.

I know there are many negative comments about Angels and Demon written by Dan Brown, and directed by Ron Howard. The comments are subjected to the cine-graphic, direction, or even plot. There is a natural tendency to compare between the book and the movie.

For me, I am just going to input about my thoughts generally about Angels and Demon.
In my diaryisblog years ago, I have written about Christianity, comments about faith and the books Dan Brown wrote. These views have not changed, and hence I would not be repeating the same for they are in

http://diaryisblog.blogspot.com/2006/05/important-discussion-faith-christians.html

It is about the updates and the new things I have learned or realised.



(From Wikipedia)


For me, I have done research on Christianity on the whole, and especially with regards to the series, Catholics. From a friend (in which I shall not named), I know the terms to "sub-divide" Christianity is known as "Denomination". There is Protestants, Catholics (Also many types), Evangelists (Anglicans) and others smaller modern units like Opus Dei.

Roman Catholics is the biggest denomination of all, with around 1/6 of population (around a whopping 1.47 Billion people) and still increasing at a fast rate.

I am not a Catholic, Roman Catholic and most likely, I would never be one.

I am a Chinese Buddhist, who believe in harmony and Yin-Yang balance. What I have always questioned, intrigued and fascinated with is "FAITH". And how traditions are meant to be logical and how religion have always been about helping humans and not restricting them to progress and enlightenment. Science is the technical, Faith and Religion is the soul.

I am bemused (as shown in one segment of the show when the Vatican Police do not know about the power of Carmelengo and the what the "above" like Cardinals' roles are) that many people who proclaimed to be people of faith actually do not understand their religion well enough. I am talking religion as a whole and not just Catholics. Taking religions classes is one thing, but to truly understand, questioned amiably and read up is not what many people will do.

The last part of the series is what I have always pondered and realised.
Many wise men in the past also have issues with regard to the flaw of humans. This includes Sun Zi, who hesitates about writing/completing the Art of War, but come to a realisation that humans will always have weaknesses and therefore war will always happen, regardless of whether his book and ideals are distributed to the mass. In fact, his ideal is to save lives, so that wars can be won quickly and minimised in terms of casualties.

Religion can be flawed, no matter what the argument is. It is due to the fact that it is always and still the apostle successor, the priests, the holy man who interpret the words of "God" or bible, or Quran or teachings, and they may be wiser and more holy but they are still humans.

Science for all its logic would also be flawed, as humans have weaknesses and have flaws, as the universal truth and patterns are seeked to ensure more fairness and higher technology. Humans are the one who encompass, discover and apply the Science and technology. This is why I believe academics and intellects tend to shy away from extreme views, and give coherent and justification to their points of views, as much as possible. The application is meant for the economics and the politics.

One of the part that touched me is when the Carmelengo look at Robert Langdon in the eye and ask him whether he believes in God personally, supposedly ignoring what other people in the world want him, as an academic, to answer?

I believe I would be stunned if this question is thrown to me in the eye. My answer would still be the same as Robert Langdon. I believe there should be "higher beings", but personally, I will never know (at present) or understand who is these "higher beings" and how or whether "HE" is watching over me. As an intellect, with both logics and even emotions, I cannot give in or answer to things that I do not understand at all, to the monothelite God, the source of all.

To the Christians, the higher beings is God, Holy Spirits (Trinity), Angels, Jeus Christ, Mother Mary ...
To the Muslim, almost the same with Allah ... ...
To the Taoists, the immortals - the Emperors, real historical figures and ancestors ...
To the Buddhists, Buddhas, Bodhisavatta, Arhats ....
To the Hindus, Lord Shiva, Brahmas, Vishnu ... Holy Man ....
To the Romans and Greeks, Pagan gods ...
To the Eygptians, Ra, Iris, Oasis ....

This is why there must be a "higher being" to guide us and so forth. Of course, my inquisitive mind would have asked who is this higher being? And why is this higher being so special? Is this higher being flawless? And who will watch the watcher?

With this, in terms of Greek mythology, Zeus give humans hope, the last important creed of all, for all the evils released into the world.

History will judge how the past works and the society will determine the codes and conduct, the trend and development of human progession. Answers would always be questioned, and questions would always raise new possibilities.

With this, I end with an intellect mind that all of us must have faith or even hope, intellects or not, holy man or not, wise man or not, academics or not, impartial or not, we are still humans with emotions after all ... ... (Unless the emotions are detached ... ... but things might still turn bad relatively and so flawed as a judgement?) Flaw will always be there, and as for how we deal with it, it is a testament and determination of wisdom and resolve ... ...

Thoughts update in the Summer Holiday 2009

This is an open blog, but in other sense, my diary. I am not a pure person, that is I have been corrupted along the way as I grow up in this society. Of course, I am able to think logically, with as much integrity and moral and ethics as possible.

My blog has contained many inner demons - Regrets, evil thoughts, bad consideration, whinces and many other negative aspects. They even contain some ghost stories I have compiled in my NS days. However, I have made my diary an open blog, a public one. I have implied earlier that "Pen is mightier than sword". This is why I have to take care not to offend while trying to get my points across. Of course, some points are better left unsaid.

It is my hope that I can have good news to be put into my blog. Truly. Awaiting ...

This friday is also a day of reckoning. I admit I have made too many mistakes that will cost me. Now I can do nothing but to pray for my grades, for I really like research and knowledge, and both which I would need grades to help me. This coming Friday ... I hope I can really smile for the first time .... ...

Up to today, I am not 100% rejected in emotion, and I am definitely not looking to rejection. Rejection is a very negative feeling. However, when you do not even have a significant chance in life to even try to ask, you will turn a little bonker. Either I am really "lucky", or I am a true "loser". I am not proud of this lame statistics and I do not want this record, as I am always prevented from making the first move. I even come up with a lame theory that I am good luck chuck. This is cock and bull, indefinitely. Right now, I keep feeling that I am a loser in this sense. My only focus now is to serve and contribute to my country and society, value family, kinships and friendships, and take care of my health above all, while building up my wealth of knowledge and materials. Only then, can I help others. To help others, I must help myself first.

My confidence has skydived recently, in lieu of the emotional aspects. I do not know what happened. Is it because of my "insolence" or my character, or for what I have done? To me, making her feel uncomfortable is already a lost cause, up to now, as the 2 "quiet" months have passed. Have I talked too much? Have I been too hasty? Have I done something horribly wrong? All these that caused her to be very uncomfortable in my presence, and at the same time, lose the "friend talks" that we formally can have. Now, I keep feeling that I did something wrong, although I really cannot recollect what I have done except, perhaps I have talked too much, maybe too much cock and bull. And maybe I have made a mistake for revealing my affection to people around me. I might have harmed her along the way. I do not blame my friends at the end of the day, the real cause is always the person, myself. If I have been a better person, then things would not have gone or become that bad afterall.

I have since decided to "give up" for the best of the current circumstances, and to hope for the best in our endeavours. With hope, we can continue to be good friends that can communicate openly to each other. I do not have the rights to comment on the "other side", in which I have various possible theories.
However, I can definitely look at myself and ask why do I still make her feel uncomfortable even after months. First of all, somethings are never meant to be, perhaps, especially an intricate thing such as emotion. Secondly, I must be really a person with big flaws though some are my characteristics. For instance, talking cock and rot (dry sense of humour?) must be controlled. Not all people can take the bull, especially the person I like and truly care about. I am very sensitive, and ironically I might also be the one thinking too much.

And this means what I have inputted above might not even be true ... LAme ...

Everything is an illusion, and the things I have pursued are empty and all in the name of youth ...

Perhaps being an "uncle", or maturity or old might not be that bad for me after all ... I prefer to call it wisdom.

Right now, the sense is that I have to be logical and that I must continue to be a better person. Competence, capability, Character. I do feel emo now and then. But life goes on, and I cannot always feel emo. The most insane thing is that I am feeling emo over an illusion, or simply a fragment of my imagination. I know I cannot stop it. But I can minimise it. Logically, I deem all this as obscure and petty issues that I must get over with.

Hope is always there, and I must believe that I always have a choice, a choice to do good and minimise cruelty. The time of peace seems to be now, as I hope humans can continue to advance, beyond enlightenment, beyond transcend. This does not mean that we play God, but to understand the true meaning, the faith and the fulfillment. That is all what is necessary for me now.
I must know what I want. I know what I want. So, I should stop feeling sorry for myself or for other people. Do what I can. Even with lack of talent, I must still attain the "10000 times theory", the theory of genius.

The rain should be over by now, I am looking forward to the rainbow and the clear blue sky. The rain is a big one, but not a disastrous one, thank goodness. This is why I am breathing in the fresh air and waiting to savour.

With renewed optimism, and always looking for hope,
William Kenshin |-_-X|
Gnail I.E.W Hep Mailliw
Bai Wei Liang
For the guy who is not the most lucky person on Earth, but lucky enough.