Finally, I get to blog. I am going to rest well for this few days. The ghosts of the past has come back, and I have to got to settle them.
I have always wanted things to turn out what they like, but it is sometimes quite impossible ....
Waiting for inspiration .... To be continued ...
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
至理名言
I wonder whether it is a dangerous thing to put my inner thoughts and feelings into a public blog where everyone can see and view.
This is perhaps an unwise thing to do, as some of the things are better left unsaid or discussed. Arguments and unnecessary misunderstandings might occur then.
But then, a saying would be if you have nothing, you have nothing to lose.
For me, I have nothing to lose as I am considered a "Nobody" now. Anyway, these are the words of wisdom that are close to my heart. They are in Chinese.
This is perhaps an unwise thing to do, as some of the things are better left unsaid or discussed. Arguments and unnecessary misunderstandings might occur then.
But then, a saying would be if you have nothing, you have nothing to lose.
For me, I have nothing to lose as I am considered a "Nobody" now. Anyway, these are the words of wisdom that are close to my heart. They are in Chinese.
害人之心不可有，防人之心不可无。
有则改之，无则加免。
满招损，谦受益。
生而自之者上，学则亚之。
多闻博识，知之次也。
有则改之，无则加免。
满招损，谦受益。
生而自之者上，学则亚之。
多闻博识，知之次也。
船到桥头自然直。
只要有恒心，铁棒磨成针。
麻雀虽小，五脏俱全。
只要有恒心，铁棒磨成针。
麻雀虽小，五脏俱全。
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Going to Age 22
It has been a long long time since I have blogged. I have been extremely lazy, or simply, I do not have the inspiration and feelings to write or type.
Like many of my former blog entries, this has no format, no pieces but just a randomness.
I am in University now. NTU, Biomedical and Traditional Chinese Medicine. Going to Second year.
Having gone back to NS police for 2 times, and the 3rd time coming within 2 weeks.
My 1st year examinations are over, with the confidence that I should fare a lot better than my former semester.
I have accustomed myself to being a busy person, wanting to be as productive as possible.
I have always wanted to find my true destiny, but I am not sure.
It seems I have matured, got wiser but still lost and confused at the same time.
Such is the perplexity of humans ...
I can't stand having myself being to free, lest of preesure from family and public.
However, I would always have found something that I can do or think and ponder.
I am officially an adult now, still single, because I have not found the "Right" one. Even with the "target" I have, I realise that it is not the right time now. I cannot fall into the same pitshole which I encounter in the past.
To say that I am very experience, it is an overstatement. However, I definitely have the discretion and the wisdom to make my decision. I may not be the best, but I am good enough.
I found myself enjoying teaching, enjoying imparting the knowledge, sharing of the knowledge, the knowledge to gain more knowledge, with technicality.
I am not so philosophical, but much more philosophy.
My life seems to be a curve, that is very stable, not too much highs or too much lows. I have to be careful what I wished for.
I have learnt to classify actions and thoughts into LOGICAL vs EMOTIONAL.
Example, when I deal with money or whatsoever, it must be LOGICAL.
I will write my lessons for the past 2 years in the blog too.
I feared for some of the contents. Some of the things should be private, as pen is mightier than the sword. This happens to be a public blog. I have to be careful though. I have inevitably offend an awful lot of people, for this I apologise solemnly. A mistake would never happen with me, for I have sworned.
Finally, I get a phrase correct, "Hells hath no fury like a woman scorned!"
Now, I am going to Hong Kong, to enjoy and to settle some unfinished business.
Ghosts of past seems to haunt you.
I do not want to make a venture obvious, we have failed half psychologically, though not technically.
I have sworned to finish a project from now on, never to quit with flying colours. Or else, I would never be that successful.
People have asked me why I never have a girlfriend. This is due to the fact that I feel that I have many flaws, both internal and explicitly, external. I am not ready with this flaws and I do not want to affect or harm the others.
It is a retribution in progress, for what I did when young. To be religious, from my past lives if possible.
I have been hurt by conciousness, even though logically I CANNOT feel that way. The external factor that has caused my charactersitics, to withhold, to hold back. I feel sick of the self-abasement, because that is the most pitiful thing on Earth. Discrimination, despite, struggle?
I have tried to seek a cure but to no avail, or have I, respectively with discipline?
Playing mind games and riddles, they are not my style, but why am I still doing?
I have gained plenty but lose a lot at the same time. To be self-abased, I might be the random party that is just lucky, and having blessings. Sometimes, you have to be a bad guy with limits to accomplish the good tidings.
Going to age 22 ... What is my true destiny? What will my destiny holds for me? What talents do I have? What am I at best? What am I to do? What would be my exploits and deeds? Extraordinary or just ordinary? Contributing to the society, economy, the world? These are the questions which I have purposefully let off when I was younger.
Going to age 22 ... and the real world ...
Like many of my former blog entries, this has no format, no pieces but just a randomness.
I am in University now. NTU, Biomedical and Traditional Chinese Medicine. Going to Second year.
Having gone back to NS police for 2 times, and the 3rd time coming within 2 weeks.
My 1st year examinations are over, with the confidence that I should fare a lot better than my former semester.
I have accustomed myself to being a busy person, wanting to be as productive as possible.
I have always wanted to find my true destiny, but I am not sure.
It seems I have matured, got wiser but still lost and confused at the same time.
Such is the perplexity of humans ...
I can't stand having myself being to free, lest of preesure from family and public.
However, I would always have found something that I can do or think and ponder.
I am officially an adult now, still single, because I have not found the "Right" one. Even with the "target" I have, I realise that it is not the right time now. I cannot fall into the same pitshole which I encounter in the past.
To say that I am very experience, it is an overstatement. However, I definitely have the discretion and the wisdom to make my decision. I may not be the best, but I am good enough.
I found myself enjoying teaching, enjoying imparting the knowledge, sharing of the knowledge, the knowledge to gain more knowledge, with technicality.
I am not so philosophical, but much more philosophy.
My life seems to be a curve, that is very stable, not too much highs or too much lows. I have to be careful what I wished for.
I have learnt to classify actions and thoughts into LOGICAL vs EMOTIONAL.
Example, when I deal with money or whatsoever, it must be LOGICAL.
I will write my lessons for the past 2 years in the blog too.
I feared for some of the contents. Some of the things should be private, as pen is mightier than the sword. This happens to be a public blog. I have to be careful though. I have inevitably offend an awful lot of people, for this I apologise solemnly. A mistake would never happen with me, for I have sworned.
Finally, I get a phrase correct, "Hells hath no fury like a woman scorned!"
Now, I am going to Hong Kong, to enjoy and to settle some unfinished business.
Ghosts of past seems to haunt you.
I do not want to make a venture obvious, we have failed half psychologically, though not technically.
I have sworned to finish a project from now on, never to quit with flying colours. Or else, I would never be that successful.
People have asked me why I never have a girlfriend. This is due to the fact that I feel that I have many flaws, both internal and explicitly, external. I am not ready with this flaws and I do not want to affect or harm the others.
It is a retribution in progress, for what I did when young. To be religious, from my past lives if possible.
I have been hurt by conciousness, even though logically I CANNOT feel that way. The external factor that has caused my charactersitics, to withhold, to hold back. I feel sick of the self-abasement, because that is the most pitiful thing on Earth. Discrimination, despite, struggle?
I have tried to seek a cure but to no avail, or have I, respectively with discipline?
Playing mind games and riddles, they are not my style, but why am I still doing?
I have gained plenty but lose a lot at the same time. To be self-abased, I might be the random party that is just lucky, and having blessings. Sometimes, you have to be a bad guy with limits to accomplish the good tidings.
Going to age 22 ... What is my true destiny? What will my destiny holds for me? What talents do I have? What am I at best? What am I to do? What would be my exploits and deeds? Extraordinary or just ordinary? Contributing to the society, economy, the world? These are the questions which I have purposefully let off when I was younger.
Going to age 22 ... and the real world ...
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