2 days ago, is the first day of the Library Books sale. Like any other "Kiasu" Singaporeans, my friends and I went to the Expo early so that we can get the good books.
Boy,we are shocked when we saw how long the queue was. As early as 0900 hrs, the queue was already an "intestine" (Literally). Luckily, one of my friend is an early bird, and an early bird always catch the best worms (Or most worms, or most best worms ...). For us, who were slightly later than usual, we just sit on the bandwagon and gave our thanks (Leveraged Ba....D we are, heehee).
Even with the priviledged fews who managed to get into the hall early, I was quite disappointed by the books that were displayed. It seems my expectation was too ideal, and thus, all the books seem pretty "useless" to me. Nonetheless, I still managed to pick up a few useful books(Around 11, which I presumed "few", because I saw people gather around 50 to 100).
Soon, the crowds gathered, and it became increasingly difficult to wander and waver through the spaces in between the book trolleys.
I managed to meet some of the people I was well-acquainted with such as my ORD friend (With his air stewardess girlfriend) and even my former colleges friends. Imagine my surprise to see my former teachers there too (The Botak and the Chinese Teacher together, heehee). We also hooked up with my former Judo and ODAC friend.
Breathing in a lot of dusts, it seems I realise why the NLB (National Library Board) put their location in the Expo hall. I have also made some speculations. This includes the young people working part time at the Library Book Sales get to pick the books they want first as an incentive other than the part time wages they are earning. I have decided with my friends to join in the Library Book Sales as workers for next year.
After the Library Book Sales, I decided to test out the new route from Expo to my house. Somehow by fate or chance, we alighted at the NYJC Bus stops. Imbued with a sense of nostalgia, we actually walked into NYJC to take a look and walk around. As usual, we are amazed by the new facilities that we did not enjoy in the past. This includes a new gym and good Science Laboratories. We managed to meet up my former Senior in ODAC and former chemistry teacher. We chatted with the teacher for a while. It seems the Dragon batch is a very competitive group. We even made some speculations about our strength in academics compare to them.
Afterthat, I went to one of my friends' house, and played 2 financial games, CashFlow and MonoPoly. To think all the while, we are carrying heavy books along ...
It was the first time since I felt more "free" since the "Negative" feelings I had from last month. It seems this syndrome is ending, and they are all in my mind. Much as I know that thinking about this is useless, futile and maglinant, this "N" feelings somehow seep into my mind. Maybe all the time, it is inside my brain and I have only successfully suppressed it but not tossed it entirely away.
Nonetheless, everything got its own way, and that when the ship reach the harbour, it will go straight. Somehow, I have already sorted out the "N", and now ready to convert to "P". "N" will only make me feel more inferior, less self-confident, and kill my self-esteem. If I lose that precious confidence, then what is the use of dreaming big, and doing big.
So, now I am still ready to embark on new projects and ready to succeed. I have another 40 years to contribute totally to the society. So, I already have the determination to step ahead and go.
It seems my life is not "very" smooth, but still "palatable" and "fortunate". So, it is only wise of me to savour the "fortunate" instead of always looking for "smooth". Only then, I can say that I am ready to be enlightened ...
